One of the sweetest things ever!

Oh, I have to show all of you who hasn't seen it on my facebook, the flowers I got from Emilia, on my birthday, my wonderful one-of-a-kind diamond! Just sending me flowers is enough. I know it's not my birthday, it was almost a month ago, but I uploaded the pictures yesterday...


The note that came with was the best:
Happy Birthday!
I miss you!
Glass!

Coming from Emilia, that is pure real love! She doesn't give away those words easily...

Xx
/Anna

A little bit more of a Wonderwoman!

I'm feeling like wonderwoman today, it's just that day. Anyone who's been with me for a long time, know why. Thank you all for your support through the years, thank you for everything. No other words are necessary. All I can say is that I live, and that my friends is the best thing.


Yours truly, forever.

Life and love and all that other things!

Today is a very good day, for me, on a very personal matter. I'm just smiling, cause I never knew how far I could go, it seems it's going to last. Nevermind, I'm heading into town to do some business, hope I'll get there with the pain in my body, I hate it right now. Nothing I do make it better, but I'm not giving up my hope on that one - cause that really is going with me 'til I die, haha, so melodramatic of me!

And yees, in about a little more than one week I'm seeing my brother again, I miss him. My brothers are the most important thing in my life, I just love them. And I got a clear sign from him yesterday that I can almost erase everything that doesn't need to be on the computer anymore, he's grown!

He looks really good, don't you think?

Xx
/Anna

Silk, velvet and brocade!

The best things about my parents is that they do everything to help you. For some minutes ago my father came home, with old, very rare, vintage clothes! I love him, he's just the best. And every little bit of it all is in good condition, so this just adds up to an even more better day! I love that things are a little bit spontanious around my home. I'm just smiling like a kid on christmas, cause this is better, just the spontanious! And good things in vintage are rarity! It's silk and velvet and brocade - I couldn't ask for anything else!

Xx
/Anna

Behind the scene: Dreamy Masks!

Today I had an amazing photoshoot, it admire those lovely models who, not only had to wear not so warm clothes, but evening gowns and all that stuff, it's getting cold outside - really cold. Anyhow, Lisa this wonderful little creature was really fun and exciting to work with, Elva and Hanse is always the best, what else can you expect? They now their things these people! I'll give you some pictures and they'll tell you the rest ;)






Behind the lens: Lisa Hasselgren
Makeup: Elva Ahlbin
Hairstylist: Hanse Andersson
Photo assist: Dominic Hedgecock

I snagged a photo from Hanse!

Keep checking in for more!

With love
/Anna

When you have to learn that you can't control everything.

I've packed almost everything for tomorrow, it's gonna be an exciting day, that I can tell ya! I'm finding myself at some sort of comfort level right now, it's been upwards down today. I know that I have to be able to work during very stressful things, but it shouldn't have to affect everyone around me - but it does. Cause you're never in control, being like this, you can have a bit of the control, but not everything like you always want to. But hey, that's life! Tomorrow evening, I'll know that I'll be exhausted but very happy!

Now, I have to go to bed - and get at least 5 hours of sleep.

Xx
/Anna

It slowly kills me.

I'm not in the mood of doing anything, really. It aches, it gets me tired, it just gets me feeling blue - and I want it to go away! Now, please! If I could I would cut it all off. It's just plain boring to have this feeling. I'm not in the mood - just because it kills me slowly - it drains everything out of me.

See you later!
/Anna

The Gummi Bears!

I loved this as a child! Really loved it! The Gummi Bears!
The intro is in swedish, so everyone that's swedish can have a nostalgic trip!



It's just so wonderful!
/Anna

Raspberry pie!

I want raspberry pie with vanilla ice cream so much it hurts right know. So I'm gonna do a pie and eat it with tofu ice-cream, cause that's nice, really really nice. Then I'm gonna go down to my basement and pick up all the things I need, I'll tell you later.

Now to pie!

Xx
/Anna

Tell me know, what do you see?

Something has fallen into me, I know it'll be gone in just a few minutes, cause that's is about how long I have anxiety nowadays - it's gonna be gone when I've finished writing this. But I miss alot of people, you know who you are, so I'm not going to say your names. But some of you, honestly - I don't miss. You should all know that all of my choices has been made with a careful mind - and I've choosen it to be this way.


And yeah, I'm thinking about doing a makeover of my blog, we'll see.

Xx
/Anna

Have you tried walking in the cheap or expensive shoes?

I've written about this thing so many times, but it wasn't 'til I discussed this with my friend Hanna that I got it to be a whole new picture for me. The thing is you may copy a shoe, hundreds - millions of times, but you never get the comfort that the original has - unless you're the one created the shoe. That's why I nowadays rather pick quality shoes than the bigger quantity. I'll tell you when you've wore a pair that's the real deal, you do not ever want to go back. So people maybe it's like this - everyone isn't going to have those Louboutins, Blahniks or Marros or for that matter, all the other ones as well, you name them - cause everybody dosen't have £600 (more or little less), to spend on a pair, but then they shouldn't have it at all in my opinion, cause if you can't buy the original then, bye bye! Shoes that aren't comfortable are not worth wearing - trust me on that one. No matter what.


Xx
/Anna

Can you go higher than hope?

Have you ever had the feeling that somethings is really to good to be true? I'm standing there right now, having that feeling - that this surreal happiness is something that isn't going to last. Even though I've felt it some time now. I can't belive I'm smiling, I'm smiling through everything - it's so hard to explain. I didn't know that you could smile from your heart, smile through tears. I didn't belive tears could be good. So now I'm sitting here, alive after all... Not even dreading the day that dreaming and living ends, cause I know one thing - I've been alive and I can smile through misery. But damnit, I'm living and that feeling is the best feeling I've ever had so far - and I'm still rising.


Xx
/Anna

Living and learning!

Doctors, doctors, doctors? Isn't it gonna end anytime soon? I sure do hope so - but when it's all over I'll be more pleased I thing, cause it ain't gonna hurt. Although my stomach is so much better without milk - it's hell and heaven at the same time. Well we just have to see what happens. But in this case I rather put the worst case scenario, so I won't be disapointed. But this is just psyichal issues, I'm very well in other prospects! Just to let everyone know. I'm still smiling and living!

Oh, I really want the gray boot, I've been wanting for some time now, GIVE ME!



Xx
/Anna

It's the small details that counts!

It's always the small details that counts, when you do something. If you're missing them, a thing can really go to waste... Look at these 2004 couture detail shoots from Dior. I love them!





If you want to see the whole show click here!

And yes, it's Pat McGrath who's doing the makeup!

Xx
/Anna

We're gonna run this town tonight!

I don't think I'll ever gonna be bored with this song, I just love it. Jay-Z, Rihanna and Kanye is just smashing in this one, I can't really describe the feeling I get, it's just over the top!

Listen!

Xx
/Anna

Fashion is not only one thing.

One thing I had to do, this week, was my laundry, and today I got myself to do it. It's sometimes very fun to do laundry for me, cause I forget about the clothes I have all the time! I was saying to myself: "Oh dear, do I have this too?" I wonder, am I only a superficial materialist? Or am I more, cause when you think of it, people tend to already have an opinion about people who cares very much about the fashion and clothes they're wearing and what happens in that world, they are being called shallow and superficial. If you think that, then I shall not only bow for you, I shall applaud you, cause not only are you ignorant - you have no idea what you're talking about. Fashion is a state of mind, it's presence and always not manageable changings makes it very alive, I live, breath and eat fashion. Fashion has no limits, fashion is constant, provocative, funny, stupid, hilarious, huge, small, fantastic, amusing, horror, ugly, pretty, sweet, sour, colourful, vivid, fantasy, divine, everything and nothing all at the same time!


Now back to laundry!
/Anna

Eventually people stops listen...

Today I got an apointment with a dietist in the beginning of october, that sounds really good, cause I need it. My body dosen't just scream for help... I'm finding it shuting itself down, wrists that doesn't want to work with me, as I want them to. All I can think of is, to cut them of. To have a constant ache brings trouble to your mind and to the persons around you, cause they suffer to, but in silence. Cause you can't always yell it out, eventually people stops listening.

Anyhow, otherwise everything is fine. My stomache isn't feeling ill at the moment and I've now been without milk for over a week, I'm a bit proud off myself. And yes, I'm still longing for some things but they will be forgotten.

Xx
/Anna

I <3 Snow White!

One of my absolute favorite animated movies is about to be re-released Snow White and The Seven Dwarfes... Do I need to say more than that I has to get it. It's a classic and today's animated world the old ones are the ones still holding the top. Real drawing, not only the computer. Oh, I can't wait. I'm a disneyfreak, everybody knows that. So I'm getting that of course! And later today I'm gonna visit Narnia, just because I've had an urge for it, these couple of weeks - but have put me on hold so when I see it, it'll be wonderful.


The ones that I have to collect still is: Fantasia, The Lion King and some other too.

And what the hell is up with that no store in this town has good dresses to wear at daytime?

Xx
/Anna

When illusion and fantasy beats reality by far!

All I can say is that I'm numb, stunned and amazed, yesterdays performance from Cirque Du Soleil, was one of the best shows I've ever seen... And anyone who knows me by now, knows that I'm picky about what I like and what I don't - but this my friends was extraordinary, magical, colourful, loving, spectacular, epic. I don't even know how to describe the settings around it. It was a joy, I watched like a little child - on christmas. There were almost to much to take in. It's epic, nothing more, nothing less what Cirque Du Soleil does. An experience that no money can't measure up - that isn't worth spending.


All my love
/Anna

Saltimbanco!

Tonight me and my mum is going to see Cirque Du Soleil's show Saltimbanco. I really hope that it's wonderful! And today it's been a week without any milk at all, I'm very proud of myself! I'm just saying! This was hard but it gets easier... We'll see what happens later! Doctors and dietist is on my to do list! But you can live without milk, all sorts of it.


I'm really excited to see Cirque Du Soleil again! Love!

Xx
/Ann

Life still goes on...

Because I don't have anything to share with anyone at the moment, I'll just give you something to look at, I have some things that I'm gonna write about, but they'll have to wait... No, it's nothing bad - just my new view of life and on food!


Xx
/Anna

Hope has a place...

I've been without milk for about 5 days, and I can guarantee that this is really hard. I don't think it's lactos, it's the allergy and it's slowly processing it's way through my guts. Do I dislike this so much that I would cut myself open to stop the aches, yes I would. I overslept today, so tomorrow I'm going to call the dietist. I need to do that. Oh please, I would do anything to make this pain go away. We'll see what happens. I'm just hoping it's gonna get better. I want to be healthy and well.


In all other aspects, I'm looking through all my stuff and do a really big cleanse, not throwing anything of course... How could I? I love them. And yes I need so much more things, and I need place to put it.

Xx
/Anna

Cravings, you can't have!

I'm not only craving things that I know I can't eat now, I'm desperate to have them, just because I can't! You get the picture don't you? I know for a fact that it takes time for my body to cleanse, but it doesn't get any better. I know it will take time, but I hate that the cravings come and you can't do anything to stop them. Well well, this is life - deal with it. But I'm sick of feeling like I'm gonna faint or puke just because I'm nauseous, I dislike this so much. I'm going to call a doctor later... And I want carrotcake with frosting on it!


Yesterday I had a meeting about new photoshoots, I'm not telling you anything until they're done... But it's going to be fab. I'm giving you something else that I love to look at, for now.


Now I'm gonna go figure out how to make everything doable without milk... We'll wait a week until we cut out gluten totally.

Xx
/Anna

When two wrongs make a right.

To make things a little bit more of a misery for me, not only can't I eat anything I want... My cell is stupid and acting like an obnoxious teenager. I hate it, so if it's off, then it's that. I am going to get it fixed, but right now I'm trying to figure out other ways to try to make it work. Let's just hope for the best.

Yesterday I spent 2 hours talking to one of my oldest friends, Malin, things are quite funny, I get pictures from her and, I just can't stop laughing looking at some off them, I know she's laughing to. We were so young - back then. So innocent in a way. Oh, sometimes I wish I could go back - but I'm pretty happy here. But it's the wonderful moments I miss, the love, the naive young little souls trembling higher to grow up. Ín cases like these words are meaningless, cause they don't say shit to you. A picture on the other hand is what speaks to you.


Love
/Anna

Good girls, gone bad...

I'm just gonna show some photos of some women that I really like the looks of. We'll see what you think... I just love them in these photos! Enjoy!

Cat Deeley

Angelina Jolie

Vanessa Paradise

Xx
/Anna

And I just bite the dust, all over again!

Cutting out everything that includes milk, is very very hard. And now we have come to terms with that it can be other combinations, like gluten from wheat - so I really don't know what to do - neither how I should feel about this. Because I can't go around feeling nauseous and like it's twisting my body upside down. Or am I just sick again? Not a good time to be sick... So I'm just standing here, happy about the fact that I'm not unaware of these sort of things, my mother is an allergic, she is alive and living. I've grown up with it. But milk and gluten? Can I choose? So it's just to bite the dust and seek a doctor, thank someone that I'm going to a dietist now.

This is my mum and me, love her!

In other cases I'm pretty happy.

Xx
/Anna

A crave and a aching body!

Well to start with something nice, I found myself a beret, and yes it's exactly the way I want it. Love that I have some luck, sometimes. I loove it, and yes I'll probably been seen it that one later this autumn, with a nice black coat and nice boots, of course with highheels! Can you expect me to be otherwise? Oh, yes, I'm looking so much for big earrings, I love them big and they can't be heavy to wear they have to be light, haha!


The bad thing is that I have a huge, gigantic problem with milk, I think it is that. The thing is I can't start buy lactosfree products, this isn't the normal lactosintolerance it's milk allergy and it has to to with the proteins, if this is it. So bye bye! Luckily I'm soon going to a dietist to get a better picture over food and all the things with me - and it couldn't have come in a better time, cause now my body is aching so much that I can't take it.

Xx
/Anna

Give me a red beret!

I need a red beret, and I really can't seem to find it anywhere... I've found other ones, but it has to look a specific way, and yes it's going to be in a photoshoot. I'll bet you that it'll be marvelous. Like this one on the photo. Loove!


Xx
/Anna

She's not me,she never will be...

In this world, you have to be prepared for changes, all the time. Sometimes, changes floats around us telling us that we have to change, sometimes it don't. I like changes and I like that my world isn't black or white, it has all the colors I want. I just know that even though things change, some things remain the same - and I'm just pleased to know that I've come so much longer than I thought I ever would for about one year ago. I'm not her - anymore. I'm me.

Xx
/Anna

Something new? Something old?

Never close your eyes, because you never know what you might be inspired of. All I can say is that it's the most truthful sentence, I've heard for many years. It's the unbearable and the conditional truth about being creative, never shut your eyes. You always have to stay on top, keep your head forward and never look back, unless it's what you should do. Fashion is all about making it new, breaking boundaries, compleeting with old elements, but never take steps back - you can't deny that the only way working in fashion is to be moving forward. So I'm gonna keep walking. And take the old things with me on the way, cause you need them to, cause without them you can't make anything new.


Xx
/Anna

Weather changes = moodswings.

I'm just gonna let a picture stand for todays writing, I don't think I have anything to share for the moment. It's autumn and my brain hates that, truly hates how the weather change and how it goes from warm to cold. But I love all the colors, they're amazing.


Autumnkisses
/Anna

Fashion is my religion.

I stayed up all night reading magazines, after I got home. I'm finding myself in love all over again, oh, yes, I can say that I love stuff, but I'm in love yet again. I don't know what it is. But something wants me to go as high as I can go and never in my life stop growing, I'd like to be like Grace Coddington, working at magazines by the age of 65, and don't want to stop doing it. Never. Some people doesn't get why fashion is such a big issue for me. I live for fashion, not all the time, but most of it. I get into my own little magical world when I see all the clothes and I've always loved colors, patterns, romantic, sculptural things that are around me, everything that touches my soul, I reinvent to something I can use. Fashion isn't just clothes I just put on me, it's my state of mind - where I go when I don't know where to go. It's the only thing in my life that is rock solid and no offense, I love to have it that way.


Xx
/Anna

Leading ladies of the fashion world.

Yesterday I saw The September Issue, and I can guarantee that it's well spent money, it's funny, sophisticated and you just see that people aren't acting, they are who they are. That's why I love the fashion industry. People might feel, like Anna Wintour self said, intimidated by people who have these jobs, cause they're not the cool kids. All I can say is that Anna Wintour and Grace Coddington (especially her) runs fashion. Grace is an amazing stylist and she is so good at what she does. She said in the movie, that you have to be cruel and have your elbows out to make it, and that's true, if you don't like a thing, then it has to go. Anyway, go look at this now, you'll get a glimpse into a world you may never be in.


Xx
/Anna

The September Issue.

Tonight I'm going to see The September Issue, with my dear old friend Hanna. It sounds like we're going to have an amazing time tonight, I'll tell you. The september Issue is about how they made, it's behind the scenes of one of the biggest fashion magazines ever, with Anna Wintour and her staff working. In the fashion world she is known to be one of the coldest persons there'll be. She is the Icequeen and she is the one on top, the one controlling everything else. She is also known for being the person that made The Devil wears Prada so famous. So now it's time to see how she really is.


Xx
/Anna

Do you need me, like I need you? Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye? Was that you passing me by?

I can't belive what I'm about to say, but I'm amazed over the fact that he still can fuck my mind up, in a disorder and turbulent chaos that really is tormented. I'm bruising myself up - yet again. I promised myself to never do that. Do I need a closure, oh yes indeed. He was gone, now he's back and it feels like I'm standing still, I haven't moved an inch. But belive me, I have. Although my brain isn't doing a good work, with keeping myself up to date. Well, life's a rollercoaster, baby! I just need to say that I didn't need to ad this to all the things around me...




Looking at good inspiration work now, is what I need.

Xx
/Anna

Happiness is fluid.

I have nothing to say, my head trumbles in it's own mess I'm making, I'm feeling fine, but something isn't as it should be. I need new things to look at, new things to break the borders with. I'm walking and feeling quite proud that I'm still doing it, cause this feels like a dream - and I'm ready to take the punch anytime, but it's not coming. I don't know why? Maybe cause I'm happy for the first time? Happiness is fluid, one day it's like nothing like you've never seen before, next day it's calm but still there.


I need to start sewing clothes, I need a velvet dress, give me! Please, in a dark color...

Xx
/Anna

If you put your heart into it!

I'm all into dance right now, I can't get enough of looking at dance things, everything, movies, people dancing is just wonderful! I just want to start dancing again... I know I stopped for a reason, and a good one - but it breaks my heart slowly to know that. Anyway, I might put me up on some dancing classes, cause you can if you put your heart into it!



Xx
/Anna

Ghosts, vampires and Ramalama!

I love this dance so freakin' much, so everybody who hasn't seen it, need to take a look. Just look, the dance is extraordinary, I don't even know where all the inspiration come from? I just love it! Give me moore!


Choreographed by Wade Robson

Xx
/Anna

Happy birthday, You're now a year closer!

Today it's my 23:rd birthday, but for real, I'm not that into celebrating. What should I celebrate? I'm a year older, but I don't feel any wiser, I learn every day. I don't feel that I have anything to celebrate, but a nice dinner with some friends wouldn't be wrong... I celebrate some other things instead. Like it's been 5 years soon, that's pretty big for me. Bigger than, that I am now a year older than before.


And yes, his name was in the mail today, I don't even know why, to laugh or cry? Give me something.

Love
/Anna

Stones in roll.

Today it's dentist time, only to find out that nothing is wrong with my teeths - and that is something I need to check up. Anyhow, dentist time.

In other means I'm just looking for inspiration for our shoot. And trying to get ahold of some of the stylists I really like... It's like this, when one stone is on the roll, everything else around it starts to move, as anyone knows. I'm scared, new territory, but at the same time really excited.


Xx
/Anna