Loved memories...

So many things come back this time of the year, for very personal reasons.
None the less, that does not necessarily mean it's bad.
But it makes me more aware and awake.
Looking back is always bittersweet, but if you take the magic from those moments -it will be more than just treasures.
It will be remembered with love.

Maybe life isn't suppose to be a fairytale, but that doesn't make us stop wanting it?

/A

Lucia!

Today it's the Lucia day here in Sweden. So hope all of you here have had a nice time!
I remember this day as a very fun memory and I'm sitting here nostalgic smiling and think about how time really travels in the speed of lightening. I do really miss all the good things and I will always treasure them.

Love
/A

Memories, love and baking!

Today after sleeping way to little, I baked yummy bread and raspberry pie, afterwards I went into town meeting up my very near and dear old friend Anna, she sure cheers me up and puts a smile on my face, oh she is a truly special human being. The memories of meeting her at the trainstation, flew me back 8 years. It something about that place. So the memories came rushing and I loved it! So tonight I'll give you some lookbacks of what has been. Hope you'll enjoy!

Love
/A

Innocence...

I miss the time of innocence.

Love
/A

4 years.

Today, it's been 4 years and it never gets easy. I miss you.

Love
/A

Paint me a picture, of eyes that never see...

For some of the memories - for the autumn to come...

/Anna

And I wait, praying to the Northern Star, I'm afraid it won't lead you anywhere...

This is just me, right now. I've sticken by it, since I heard it the first time, more than 10 years ago. Although it may break my heart, it still seems to make it better. This is both beauty and ugly, angry, sad... I don't really have any words as I never have when it comes to this.

And I want you

And blessed are the broken

And I beg you

No loneliness, no misery is worth you

Oh, tear his heart all cold as ice

It's mine

/Anna

A beginning, an ending, a love, a fight.

This week is just a rollercoaster in my head, but I'm not afraid of it. But this makes me emotional, a trainwreck at some points and the other dancing around without breaking my upstate mind. I can't helt that I get nostalgic, thinking about all those people that's been in your life, I owe them great thanks today. Some of them especially. You can never imagine how it is, if you weren't there. Only those who were, are able to think about it. Maybe today without thinking about sorrow, cause we fought, loved and cherished each other in that chapter of our lifes, I think we still cherish each other - and no matter what, everything wasn't bad, it was everything. And come to think about it, we're still in the beginning only, who knows what comes next?

Lovely thoughts

/Anna

Amicus verus est rara avis...

I have some friends that are more special than others, that are really hard to describe, one of them is her, who came into my life in mid 2002, starstruck me with her words, her beauty and her strength. Believed in me when no one else would, screamed, got angry, laughed and loved through everything we went through. She and I have a very bumpy road that we've been travelled on, still travelling - but always managed to get ourselves together when we went through hell and came back up. It's been a very special relationship with this woman - a relationship that I wouldn't trade for anything in this world. We had our fights, our laughs til' we'd start crying and all the endless talking about life, love and what would become of us.

In my opinion we turned out very well, still standing and still in this with more love than we ever would imagined, I am truly blessed of having her as one of my most truly beloved friends.

I love that you love me...

/Anna

Nostalgia and some love that runs deep...

One nostalgia trip, a childhood memory and then off celebrating my mother and that it is her birthday! Love my mum, she's the best. Lots of love to this woman, my mother. For putting up with me for over 23 years and for always being there...

This show brings back so many memories that I barely knew I had.

A childhood is sweet and full of innocence, this brings that back. I'll be posting more later on.

This was when we went up in the air, another birthday present for her,

for two years ago, oh want to do it again!

Love and kisses

/Anna

Tresaured loved memories...

I need to write about some stuff, but due to my own little privacy they won't be open here. Not that it's big things... Just the feeling that you still have to have your own little space. I found a thing I did for about ten years ago today, of course it's for school and the project was about yourself. I got myself a mindblower, that's the only certain thing. Things were different then, yet I know nothing was I wanted it to be. Ha, funny how you can swoop back 10 years, and still be in the present. Anyhow, I'll give you some sweet photos of me and my lovely two brothers, the best ones.

Lovely memories...

/Anna

Bolibompa!

I stumbled over some old things that I used to look at as a little kid, childrens program if you say so... Haha! I have the start for every show (that I used to look at and everyone else who were looking at 6 o'clock every evening, and my favorite was Björnes Magasin, a lovely show, that from what my mom says I cried everytime Björne disappeared - oh, poor little me ;) Anyhow, some people never liked the start of Bolibompa, but I sure did!

Love

/Anna

Moments that will last forever...

Once upon a time... When me and my best friend Malin, were out on her school, this is circa 03-04 (I don't now the specific day, not that it matters). I modelled, back then it was a huge step for me to even be on a picture, but Malin brought something out of me and today we look back and see that a lot has changed, but the love is still there. So here's one of the photos Malin took - I love that moment and I know she does...


Kisses
/Anna

Psychedelic moods and magic...

This song has been with me since I was around 13 (-99) and it still is one of the most relaxing songs I've listened to... As always I'm split into halves when it comes to music, I can love everything with a heart... It soothes me, makes me smile and is special. This is just amazing, believe me. I just loose myself to the different beats and tunes...

psychedelic magic
/Anna

Lifelong memories...

For all that could have been, for all that was, for all to come, thank you. I have no other words than thank you. Every person that's been in my life is always in my heart. I didn't have that heart before, but after all, I found my way of walking through it all and still going. So thank you, I'll probably write more later, but it's good for now. You will always be with me, no matter what.

Love
/Anna

Memories that pops up...

I went through some of my old photos, from 2006 and somewhere around that... I laughed, cried, gasped, got emotional, cause that's what it is. Emotional, loving memories and as for me right now I'm an emotional wreck! But seeing me back then was interesting, it's always good to have a perspective. And I love my black/red wool knitted sweater!



Tonight I'm meeting up my Cookie and we'll chat, laugh and maybe go out for a walk, who knows? It's a mystery ;)

Xx
/Anna

Memories and moving forward...

It's still white and beautiful outside. This night I stayed up reading old stuff, it's some sort of therapy, cause you get the distance from where you were and where you're at. This year has been the most interesting year as I can remember, I've lost some on the way and gained so much more than I ever could expect. Sometimes life is nothing more than life. It's like fashion, in a way, I can always see different clothes come back, over and over again, but it's always moving forwards. Pure refreshing steps. It's as true as anyone would say, no matter what, life still goes on. It's bittersweet, as everything else...

Love
/Anna

Funny christmas memories...

If it's one thing here in Sweden during the Christmas time that brings up lots of memories to almost everyone, is the calenders that we each day opens and either watch a episode on tv or listen to on the radio, there are two different each year. It's usually the tv for most of us (I think)... As we count the way down to the 24th of December when we celebrate Christmas eve. One of the best shows ever that's been on tv, was and still is Sunes Jul, it's hilarious - I laugh so hard that I could start crying! It was made in the beginning of the 90's and is the best off showing how things might be here, chaotic, funny and all above and under...? To watch and understand this, you have to know swedish, so this is to all of you who just want to watch the best Christmas entertainment ever! Enjoy! These memories are a sweet bliss!



The countdown begins 1st of December!
/Anna

On my own, The world is full of happiness that I have never known...

I've said it before, and I will probably going to repeat this many times in the future, memories, the things that may dwell in the dark and light up your entire presence just to keep you looking forward. Reading old things brings up mixed memories, but they are there to have some sort of purpose. Listening to music that brings you back, is mortifying and wonderful.


Some people say that the people around us have mould us to become who we are, I do think that's only is a little part. I think I've mould myself into the person I'm becoming, of course some humans around me has had an impact, but it is mostly you and the determination of what you want to be, become and evolve into - that is the biggest transformation. You are the only one that have the experience that make you - you. The fights you've have taken, and the battles you've lost. And those battles is inside not with the ones around you. My biggest battles is within, and I have big ones coming my way. But that doesn't mean that the ones I've had around me hasn't been a fortune. But I'm on my own, with the people just around me, not having to fight my battles any more - I'm the one fighting.

/Anna

Flashbacks, are they good or bad?

Do you sometimes have flashbacks that aren't inevitable bad, but it brings back something good also? Everything can't be bad all the time, but sometimes when it has been bad for a duration of more than you can imagine, you tend to forget the nice things that happened to you also. This day brought many things up to the surface. And after seeing my old teacher, Inger - that I truly loved, she is and was amazing during the years I had her - and today when I talked to her for the first time since I was 13, my heart just burst, I just wanted to cry and thank her for all the things she did... She is perhaps the best teacher I've ever had during my childhood, and Eva and Jenny from my high school.

I think that even though those years weren't easy,
I had some people that saw me, and that's a bliss.

Love
/Anna