Living life.

For someone who love writing, I'm sure very bad at doing it. Maybe because it's not that fun writing here anymore, or maybe because I have nothing to say. I think I've become more private, more boring and actually trying to have a somewhat "normal" life, as I can have. Some may say that I complicate and make it more complex, well, living life is apparently not that easy every now and then. The thing is to keep fighting for yourself and never give in. I haven't but I thought a long time ago that I would. So while I've been missing out on "living", although I quite lived a lot, I do try to live somewhat different than before. We'll see if I'm doing a good job, later on.

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Fashion and soon to be summer.

Wide awake reading about the history of fashion photography, a whole new dimension is opening up. Love it! Lots of reading and writing, some analyzing and then more of everything just mentioned. Not much of getting beauty sleep, but lots of coffee will keep my spirit alive for the rest of the week and yes, another thing, summer is knocking on the door, finally! Not only does my mood (hopefully) become better and more stabilized, my body also gets a little bit easier to cope with.

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There is always something.

Isn't it very funny that when everything is flowing - there is always something to mess it up completely and utterly as it would do it on purpose ! Oh, how I love it!

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Autumn bipolarity.

 When autumn arrives, there is a certain swift in the air, not only is it cooler. It has come to be a sort of change for me. Like the knowledge that the sun is slowly going to shine less and it will get darker. I take comfort in that. I don't like flickering lights, it is truly beautiful but my head can't stand it. Others can, I admire them. I love all the colours. So by wearing sunglasses, hiding behind a big scarf and pretend that I don't have a head that is slowly going to rip me apart is a way out. I'm good at pretending and it has become an advantage. It's how I manage it, I have to go on pretending. A little bit dramatic, but it seems to work.

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Not here.

That's exactly my thought and I surely don't want it at this specific time.

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Bad day, but good memories.

A pretty bad day, nothing else. But despite that I'm making a skirt, a lovely blue one. I hope that the midsummer will be wonderful and loving and sunny! This was from last saturday when we were out partying, fun fun fun! Lovely friends and dancing can never go wrong.

Love
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Neverland.

I've never needed to visit neverland as much as I do now.

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The grey land of nothing.

I'm in no-mans-land, so to speak. Don't really know why I've ended up here. Maybe the opposite sides really collided and draged me into this, let me feel something that don't makes me want to fly and therefore kill me. Neither is it appropriate to get this now, very bad timing. On the bright side, this year has nearly ended and a new year is up and about, we can hope for a better one there, can't we?

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Tumble in the dark!

My head is jumping upside down, how do people do this?
Give me some sort of advice, cause I'm tumbling in the dark.

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Wish?

I wish...
...that my body should stop messing with me.
...my storm to be quiet in my head.
...me back - again.

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Is...

...this the blessed hell ride?
Please, let me know.

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Mindfucked!

Totally mindfucked by who else but me? But in a good way, perhaps?
Otherwise I'm drawing, writing down all stuff that I can catch.
The hard part is to keep up with my mind and not losing it totally.
My creativity has never been more vigorous or more vibrant!

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A break.

What do you do with this, how to fix it, can anybody tell me that?

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The trick is to keep breathing.

The storm in the teacup, no you are not supposed to get it all.
Believe me, if you haven't been here, you have absolutely no idea.
The trick in reality is to keep breathing.

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Longing for something else...

I'm wanting to look at Practical Magic, The Secret Garden, Hogwarts and so on... Longing for another world, lullabies, fairytales that are not from this world. Wanting to live as forever does exists. Maybe in my escapist mind there's this reality, but the dreadful reality outside where there's only grey colours is slowly taking me apart. So running to a secret garden wouldn't be so bad, would it?

Love
/Anna

Inferno part I

Go take a look at this if you know swedish. It doesn't show the deepest things, but what does?
I really like that they take notice - but not close to what reality is.

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Dancing...

"And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane,

 by those who could not hear the music." 
 - Friedrich Nietzsche

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Wanting and needing it now!

I need a new jacket, a new pair of shoes. I'm practically giving all my old stuff I own away (well not everything, but some stuff is going), what the hell has happened? Maybe so I can get new stuff so I don't get so bored. What am I thinking about, can somebody tell me? Well, I don't have time thinking about that either anyhow, other stuff is happening. I want it all and I want it now. These things is needed now!

Lovely one from Topshop

Give me, I still don't have a proper grey bag, Dune

Black wedges is always good, aren't they?

Xx 

/Anna

Restless...

A restless heart, so many and creative ideas that I'm not gonna put out here, but on my paper in my book. I think they might be some nice ones, even some of the best I've had. As you can see, my blog is changing again, and it's still not finished. Nothing is impossible, my imagination of what I want is constantly there. Oh, tonight I'm gonna knit, do my dress, it has to be done!

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Bow down before the one you serve, You're going to get what you deserve...

 Right now..

No you can't take it

No you can't take it

No you can't take that away from me

- Nine Inch Nails

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