Aches from some sort of hell.

Does this shit end anytime soon? Let me now, cause I'm pretty damn tired having to deal with a body that still doesn't want to do what I want.

/A

A shoulder and then..?

One shoulder and now one leg. My body is hell.
Does this ever give up? Cause I'm about to do that.

/A

Green tea with taste of mango!

I dislike my soar throat  very much right now. It never gives in, so it seems at the moment... Come on, I don't need this right now. I'm gonna brew myself a nice cup green tea which has a taste of mango (lovely) and take a warm shower - hopefully I'll be better tomorrow!

 /A

The pain I'm really used to..

My body is screaming, I'm really not in the mood. It's on it own!
Fun fun fun!
I wish I was a kid again, not having this to deal with.

/A

Up and down?

Too many thoughts and not so many words to write down. I need some good sleep for once, cause everything in my head is upside down.

/A

Knitting, clothes = tonight's therapy.

I want new clothes, a new big scarf for the winter to come (I'm making a red beautiful one myself, by knitting) and new shoes, it's therapy. What do I not want? I don't want this cold to stay any longer. I don't want moodswings from hell - I want my life. Can I have everything? 

Knitting is theraphutic - really.

Pure love, give me!

Xx

/Anna

Craving pancakes!

When you're sick, not that much food is pleasant to eat, that's a fact. I hate eating with a sore throat. 
Another case of the scenario is wanting what you can't have, right now it's pancakes, give me! 

Xx
/Anna

Ginger tea!

Ginger, honey is my cup of tea today - being sick is probably the most boring I can think of. Hopefully getting better soon, tomorrow I hope! Keep your fingers crossed...

Music for this day is Neil Young.

/A

Sickness...

Sick, don't want, don't need. But still have to hang with it.

I hate it, truly do. Break?

/A

Getting back my shape!

I'm slowly getting back to shape, in a very healthy way!

I love dicipline, haha! Can't believe that I even said that...

Working out, eating properly, have routine is my way to live healthier and happier!

Xx

/Anna

The autumn is here...

It's really autumn, I'm dreading this season when it gets rough - as always!

But I love the clear icy air, the frost on the grounds and all the colors...

Tomorrow it's workout, and other fun stuff!

Maybe clean out my closet a little bit more?

Xx

/Anna

Yoga?

Now more than ever, I really do want start practicing yoga. I have a feeling that it will be wonderful for me, meditation and training. But what to choose, how much dicipline is good at the beginning?

Xx

/Anna

Irascible, irritable or irritated?

I'm just irascible of all the pain right now, so I'm not so fun to deal with... Well, that's my life, I could write word after word, paper after paper about it. How you live with bipolar disorder and fibromyalgia, but that will never be interesting. So the best lesson I've learned is stop bitching about it and do at least something. But I will never say that it is easy or that you can take the easy way out - that's why I can say today that it is devious and irritating, but you learn by it and I have to write it off.

Xx

/Anna

One step at a time?

If anyone wonders, not that I think there are -I have NOT been down these days, I've had many thoughts around me and lots to think about. Yesterday I stood cooking all day, I love it. It's so theraphutic about it. And by making pies, pannacotta and scones, makes you easen up!

Today I'm thinking about how to make my ideas into reality, how many dresses am I gonna make for this autumn? How many skirts? What to do with my life for real? How to deal with it all. I think that my first initial plan of taking one step at the time, is not bad at all. We'll see, don't we?

Love

/Anna

Not so pleasant...

The only word you need to know; PAIN!

(and not the pleasant one, I can't wear anything over my shoulders, to begin with)

/A

Dizzy and pain, but happy!

I'm happy, but dizzy and in a lot of pain and it's breaking my spirit. I can't stand it.

Please put a sledgehammer in my back and smash it to bits...

Everything around me is pretty damn good, otherwise.

It's just life.

Xx

/Anna

Rot and assimilate!

Skinny Puppy, was and is amazing! My little heart beats most for electronica - there's something there that you can't find anywhere else. Thank you!

I'm not feeling well at all today, but I'm still cleaning, cause my mind is set on that. Tomorrow if I feel better, I'm heading for the gym!

Xx

/Anna

Back pain...

My back hurts, kill it! I want to chop it off!

I hate that when it does this, but otherwise I'm still one happy as hell kid.

/Anna

Skipping-rope?

I think about going out, maybe to walk, run or anything that makes my body work. It has too much energy right now... But why complain about things like that? I shouldn't at least.

I want my old body back, bring it back now!

My tiny waist and not so big boobs!

Xx

/Anna

Stomachache from hell (again)!

A stomach that doesn't really work is hell. Living hell... It's been a mess for a pretty good while, but it has it's ups and downs... I'm in no mood whatsoever to go back to the doctor over and over again, that's what I've been doing for over 2 years now... But this is just not alright - not even a little bit close to okey.

/Anna