Have a extravagant, sparkling, amazing New Year!

I have to wish everyone a very, happy, sparkling, wonderful, amzing New Year! And that you have a nice time celebrating it, if you're celebrating or if you're home taking it easy, I hope you'll have it as nice!


See you next year!

(Now I'm gonna go back looking for more chooses of clothes)

Lovely sparkles and bubbly kisses
/Anna

Preparations...

Today is just relaxation and taking care of myself that's on the map. Later I'm going to a party, just to get out and enjoy myself! So, now it's time for the shower, doing my nails, have a facial mask and start looking at clothes... As everyone know I'm a maniac when it comes to clothes - and I don't know what to wear. Everything is as it always is, chaos, haha! I just want to have a velvet dress tonight, but hey, another time ;)

Xx
/Anna

Psychedelic moods and magic...

This song has been with me since I was around 13 (-99) and it still is one of the most relaxing songs I've listened to... As always I'm split into halves when it comes to music, I can love everything with a heart... It soothes me, makes me smile and is special. This is just amazing, believe me. I just loose myself to the different beats and tunes...

psychedelic magic
/Anna

Maybe the beginning of a life worth living?

It's usually around this time of year, you start making promises, that you aim to keep for the following year. I've never made any huge promises, that's not my kind. I do what I want to do, and don't follow in others direction, unless - I want to. But everything changed this year, that's almost passed us by now, I began growing, feeling like a human (at last) and not wanting to kill myself with my entire instinct whenever I felt down (big change)! I had my medication and it started to kick in - meanwhile I began to live with all that comes with that... I also had the wonderful joy of experience with both the old and the new. But here at the end of the year, I'm more happy than ever (no I did not became numb!), not afraid of anything and I promise you this, I have absolutely no regrets - I stand by and realise that what has been done, is done.

And suddenly I realise that this is only the beginning of my life...

Love and sparkles
/Anna

The LBD is always a safe card to play..

I really wanted a dress like McQueen's midnight blue velvet dress... But as always, I want the original and not a copy and therefore I have to give up my idea of wearing it, now. But I really want a velvet dress, and for New Year it seems that I will wear the LBD, as always it's a safe card, and I need that right now, not sticking out is important! Haha, believe it or not!

See you later!
I'm working on my summary, not sure about it yet...

Love
/Anna

Life is fluid, so is Fashion...

I think today is the day, when I should, sum up the year, or the years that has passed us by. Cause not only has it been ten years since we switched from 1900 to 2000, it's happened so much, every newspaper I read writes about the "zero - zero" years, and they get it quite well... I'm not being sarcastic now about that! But how do you sum up 10 years of life? If I'll do it I'm going to do it my way. And I really don't know where to begin, these years have included the best things in my life and the worst. As I wrote just a day ago or something, the people that's been with me, will always be. In one way or the other. Things always change, and they'll keep doing that, I learned to stop fighting it - it's life. Like I battle fashion, everything isn't good and beautiful, but it doesn't have to be...



I'll give you more later (maybe), now I have to go and find something to wear on New Year...

Love
/Anna

Sillhouetts against the moon...

Oh, I started looking for old wonderful pictures of trolls (a Scandinavian supernatural creature) that lives in mountains, in the hills, under stones and are just magical, like fairies and all other folklore we have up here... My favourite painter is John Bauer, just see for yourselves and admire what wonderful paintings he did... My favourite, all time, is Tuvstarr, yes the one below...





Magical kisses in the night
/Anna

Around the world, with shpongle!

I am Bambi when I go out, where did my balance go? Out the window? For what I remember, walking on slippery things never been an issue, maybe I'm being more careful now, who knows? I don't... We'll see. But I'm going to go ice-skating with my brothers, I just have to! In other cases I've been walking (read: trembling) around in the snow, in my own little world of magical colours and music, meeting some friends, and now I'm just at home listening to Shpongle, I love! Remembering why I should pick myself up and dance... If you know me, you'd know why...

Love from the tea daze...
/Anna

Amazing x 2!

Too much fun, too much fun! I love this guy, he's the funniest! All we do here at home is saying amazing!

Xx
/Anna

Lifelong memories...

For all that could have been, for all that was, for all to come, thank you. I have no other words than thank you. Every person that's been in my life is always in my heart. I didn't have that heart before, but after all, I found my way of walking through it all and still going. So thank you, I'll probably write more later, but it's good for now. You will always be with me, no matter what.

Love
/Anna

Amazing, Amazing, Amazing!

Amazing just amazing! Hope you'll enjoy it! Take a look! Just watch!



Xx
/Anna

Memories that pops up...

I went through some of my old photos, from 2006 and somewhere around that... I laughed, cried, gasped, got emotional, cause that's what it is. Emotional, loving memories and as for me right now I'm an emotional wreck! But seeing me back then was interesting, it's always good to have a perspective. And I love my black/red wool knitted sweater!



Tonight I'm meeting up my Cookie and we'll chat, laugh and maybe go out for a walk, who knows? It's a mystery ;)

Xx
/Anna

Christmas day...

Yesterday was wonderful, I got things I'd never expect I would get... Personal affection, very sweet and lovely. Can't get better for me. I also loves giving away things when I get the chance to, either if it's Christmas or birthdays or just that I can give away something. This year we had my grandma, aunt, uncle and cousins here, and just by having many warm and happy people around me, makes me smile. So yesterday was special. Thank you.

Here are some pictures when we were a lot younger...




Love
/Anna

Dreamings of a white Christmas comes true...

I just want to drop by and wish everyone a wonderful, loving and warm Christmas Eve! Hope you all will enjoy it! I know I will... And yes, we'll have a white Christmas at last! So maybe I'm going to do what I did as a child, go out making snowangels!



Christmas warmth and love
/Anna

1 day 'til christmas...

It's going to be a white christmas and I'm truly happy for that... First one in age, well well, there's no time to think about that, it's just making gifts and cooking food, lots of food for tomorrow. It's going to be lots of gifts, cause this is the first time we'll be crowded since my granddad past away in 04, so not only taking steps forward, but realising that things change. It's been a wild journey.

Love
/Anna

Midnight velvet...

I want a really nice velvet dress, in a very dark colour, I found one from Mr McQueen (but he never fails to disappoint me, haha) and one from Celine. The one from McQueen is a draped dress with midnightblue velvet and a open back, I adore! Give me now! The Celine dress is very chic and has a elegance to it.

I'd love to put burgundy/silver accessories and letting this one speak for itself, cause it does!

I would probably wear this dress with some touches of colour but letting the dress be here to.

Photos from Net A Porter

Love
/Anna

Memories and moving forward...

It's still white and beautiful outside. This night I stayed up reading old stuff, it's some sort of therapy, cause you get the distance from where you were and where you're at. This year has been the most interesting year as I can remember, I've lost some on the way and gained so much more than I ever could expect. Sometimes life is nothing more than life. It's like fashion, in a way, I can always see different clothes come back, over and over again, but it's always moving forwards. Pure refreshing steps. It's as true as anyone would say, no matter what, life still goes on. It's bittersweet, as everything else...

Love
/Anna

Love, snow and thoughts...

Time, there's never enough time for all that you should do, and want to do... What to do? Just going with it seems to be a big solver off these situations. I've put all the styling jobs on hold during Christmas and New Year, just to be on the safe side... This is actually the first winter I've ever felt fine, so cross your hearts and hope to die. Just to be some more on the safe side... It's very funny how life seems to turn from downside, to upside and back down - loving every minute. And having my supportive, crazy, wonderful and courageous family along side with me, I'm all out of words there...


Now it's start thinking about more gifts and bake a cake.
And please, if you have snow around you, go out and just enjoy, even for a minute.

Snowy kisses
/Anna

I felt like I was back in Narnia...

I cleaned til' about 4 o'clock in the morning, and after waking up, clean more. I literally live in a big pile of clothes, shoes, books, movies, textiles, hats and all that I've collected through out the years, I realise that a lot has changed, but not for the worse - for the better this year and even though I didn't believe in the outcome at first, I do now. It's been a journey and I will sum up these last years, and I'm finally not afraid anymore and I'm ready to begin my life...

Me and my mum went out in the cold just for an hour ago, breathing in the crystal clear air, the starry sky and all the white snow around me. All I can say is that, I'm totally and utterly in love. It's so extraordinary, cause I've never experienced winter like this. So snowangels, ice skating and all the other things you can do... Just walk around admiring the small tales that goes around in your head. I felt like I was in Narnia, and standing by the lamppost ready to live.


Snowy kisses and love
/Anna

Cleaning is NOT fun.

Wrapping gifts, cleaning and finishing everything has begun here, I hate cleaning, cause when I do it, I have to work until everything is done... I don't care about it when I do it, or what time it is, I just keep working... Well, today I have to do clean either way... I don't want to! I want to be out in the snow, play and be a little child, well I can do that later... Look out here I come.

And the pain slowly kills my body! But I'm happy anyway (minus cleaning)!

Kisses
/Anna

Simple, chic and still edgy?

If I had the body I wanted to have, right now, I'd probably would want to wear something nice, simple and good looking on New Year, so I went looking for the perfect dress, shoes and accessories. I started to look, and found one beautiful dress after the other, but nothing really suited me. Maybe cause what I was looking for literally wasn't there. I wanted; black, velvet, open back, one sleeve dress. High heels, some nice accessories, so it doesn't have the tacky feeling of being overlooked. But I didn't find exactly that - but something like this, perhaps? I want it simple, laid back and still something edgy.



Dresses from Hervé Léger
Pictures from Net A Porter

Xx
/Anna

I don't need another hero...

It's snow everywhere I look - and I love it! The snow is as light as dusty powder, and I just can't wait until it's going to be a starry night, that surrounds you with darkness and all the moonlit snow. I did a evaluation of this year today, and I really could not imagine that I was going to take one the most important steps in my life so far - beginning to learn how acceptance is. I didn't believe in change or happiness, you don't need to know more, but the part I realised is that I don't need your hero - I have myself, with everything along the ride.

Love
/Anna

A day in a life...

Today, I met up with the fantastic and lovely designer, Moa Orrbacke, such a phenomenal creature. When I did the "Hard Candy"-shoot with Nina, Elva and Hanse, I used lots of her colors, go look them up here. We'll we went looking at clothes (of course) and chatted about all kinds of things... After Dominic joined us ( a photographer), very sweet indeed, we sat down for more chatting. So it was a very nice day, what else? And a drop by Hanses work to.


Now I'm home, with more ideas than ever, and planning on starting them up, as everything just tag along. We'll see. But when you surround yourself with creative, innovative and challengeing people, the outcome is just wonderful!

Xx
/Anna

Going my own way...

Some people say that the best things in life are free, I can say today that, yes, some of the best things are free, but some also has a high price to claim. It's like pure love, happiness and feeling good, is something that isn't easy to get. It might be free, but it isn't easy. It's very normal to be cynical and I can't blame them, who am I to blame really? I still have to run from this reality to keep myself on the ground, see even that sentence is a contradiction, but at this point, I don't care! I started walking on my own way, and I don't think I'm going to stop, through out my life. Me and my moodswings, what should I do without them?

Do you go your own way?

/Anna

Crispy air on snowy grounds?

It's really snowing, are we going to have a beautiful landscape that's entirely white? With crispy air and the beauty that it brings. I hope that this will last, cause for the first time (for about more than five years) I'm going to go ice-skating, with both of my brothers when we're celebrating christmas, it ought to be very funny, to look at. But I loved it as a child... We'll see. So if the white snowy landscapes is holding through - it will just be so lovely that I might burst.


And, I might think this is the first time that I don't have plans on disappearing from the earth during the winter... I'm at ease, but knock on wood. You never know.

Love
/Anna

Whispers on a snowy day...

It's snowing and I love it... I'm hoping for a beautiful white christmas and I love that even though I have my moodswings, they are not dragging me to the floor, or putting me on the highest piedestal, with an outcome that isn't pleasant. We'll see. But I'm happy, I have wonderful people around me. My best friend is still there after everything... But as she said yesterday, we wouldn't be the same people if we wouldn't have the memories (that I wouldn't trade for anything), she's just my precious Malin, and the love there is wonderful.


Now it's off planning more christmas gifts and maybe read some parts in Brambly Hedge!

Love
/Anna

When easy isn't.

How do you write something that you don't have the words for? Listening to specific music or noise brings up a reminder about things we might have forgotten. Past, present, future. Holding those three little words in your mouth seems somewhat overwhelming for me. Not only cause I never know what the future has in stored for me. But also with all the people that goes by in life, and somewhere along the way, you've stopped for understanding the needs for you and from others. Taking the comfortable easy way, is simple. Taking the long way, is when you really fight battles you don't know the outcome of. But then there's always the interesting fact that what some people tend to find hard very easy, vice versa. All I want to say is that I did it my way and I'm still walking...

Love
/Anna

Thoughts on a saturday morning...

Sometimes you have too many words, that you can't give away any of them. They are just too many. I know that I've told people that I one day is going to write about the bipolar disorder I have, but today is not that day. I can't put the sentences into a good formation. So I'm letting that go for now. Right now, I don't write so much about anything in particular, I just write about the things that currently is in my mind. At the moment, is that christmas is approaching in a speed of lightening. We'll see what happens, I'm just smiling.

Xx
/Anna

Fair, flawless romantic beauty...

One amazing photographer, I fell over a couple of weeks ago, is the Japanese Namiko Kitaura. She is fantastic in a very specific way. Making sure your eye needs and wants more - of her brilliance. Take a look for yourselves!












Love
/Anna

I want...

I want fairytales. I want secret gardens. I want staircases. I want beauty. I want ugly. I want love. I want happiness. I want melancholy. I want dreams. I want nightmares. I want fairies. I want monsters. I want wonderlands. I want lilys. I want lace. I want freedom. I want roses. I want gentle whispers. I want hunger. I want pain. I want diversity. I want sugarcoated candy. I want carnivals. I want velvet. I want romance. I want raw. I want silk. I want shimmering grounds. I want crispy air. I want the moon. I want sunny days. I want tears. I want laughter. I want to die. I want to live. I want mercy. I want you. I want me. I want time. I need time.

I want everything and beyond that...

/A

An emotional wreck to Lion King?

I do not like urges, so that when I obsesses over something, I can't get it out of my head until I've satisfied my need. Today is a very good need, watching Disney movies, that can never go wrong, it really can't? But I want to see The Lion King, and everytime I watch it, I have a tendency to start crying from the first moment to the last, haha! An emotional wreck, but hey - life's still happy!


Love
/Anna

Imaginatively Wonderland!

As always when I find something lovely, I'll be putting it up here... As a collector of fairytales, and also loving the antique crafts that come my way, it's not unusual that I tend to preferably like photos that have a slightly touch of a scent of old in them... Wonder off to a wonderland of my own little bubble, were there's no outer chaos and anxiety, it's all just pure magical imagination, so enjoy!






Dusty sparkles
/Anna

Life just happens...

It's a little bit more than 2 weeks until christmas, and all my gifts are in the production process - I'm not rushed, I know exactly what I need to do, and I have some days... Haha! Never mind, it's so unusual for me to be ahead of time! But as always it's very much to do! The only thing in my way of doing all the things I need is that my hands' get better, cause without them I can't do shit! The most frustrating thing is still that I can't do anything - and although while you're accepting this you have to struggle, but that's life. I just hope that the snow will come soon and I just can lay my eyes on it.


Xx
/Anna

A smile is sometimes more than you think.

So many things is happening for me on a personal level, I am for the first time, since I can remember, really happy and pleased with the outcome - and I'm not afraid anymore. If I look back, you can read alot here during christmas '05 (of course you have to read swedish then) but the major difference in my life now is palpable, it's not floating in the air but neiter as hard as rock. Some things just are, without anything put on it. But that my doctor said that it was a very nice christmas gift - then my heart took a little leap. Sometimes a smile is more than enough for you. Cause you never thought you would put it there.


Photo by Sølve Sundsbø @ art+commerce

Cheers
/Anna

Upside down?

When I woke up this morning, I was empty. I'm still that, in my mind. I might have so much in my mind that I don't know really what to put down. It's been anxiety versus happiness all weekend, tearing my guts out, two opposite sides towards each other, isn't a particularly excellent idea. It will settle later. Now I have to fix things for christmas, decorate and all of the above and under it!

/Anna

My brothers!

My brother was up this weekend, I sure do miss him and it was lovely to have him here... Not that he's light years away, he's just not around as he used to be. My brothers is without doubt the most important people for me, and they will always be some sort of that, no matter what happens. Love them with all my heart! I'm gonna write later, about some things, so keep your heads out!

With love
/Anna

Prints and Revolution!

I found the complete series, of some magical colourful and vivid pictures some days ago, one of the pictures is one that's been up in my blog several of times. Steven Klein is the photographer and the beautiful model is none else than Jessica Stam and a male model, that I don't have the name of, lovely collaboration with V magazine. Hope you love them as much as I do! This is purely remarkable pictures!













Colourful loveliness
/Anna

Morphine, somebody?

If I could, I would scream to the entire world that my body can't take it anymore. Cause it can't... It's tired and I'm tired of me complaining, tired of always fighting battles - that I can't do a flying fuck about. Yes, I need to write this off my chest. I'm just tired and my physical health don't make it easier to control the psychological one either. Cause they depend on each other when it's gone too long. I'm just so tired of trying to struggle myself through this without getting better. I know I could fight this until the end of the world, but it wouldn't matter.... I'm just tired... Can somebody give me a shot of morphine?

/Anna

Softened colors...

For a week ago, I got something in my mail, no, nothing really important, but a brochure about christmas gifts from none than Åhléns here in Sweden. I never tend to look at them really closely but when I saw the illustrations, my heart jumped! They really did it well, or they choose a illustrator that are in my point of view one of swedens most talented ones, Lina Bodén, she just is extraordinary in what she does, there's no question about that. Adoreable!





Sparkling kisses
/Anna