I can't belive what I'm about to say, but I'm amazed over the fact that he still can fuck my mind up, in a disorder and turbulent chaos that really is tormented. I'm bruising myself up - yet again. I promised myself to never do that. Do I need a closure, oh yes indeed. He was gone, now he's back and it feels like I'm standing still, I haven't moved an inch. But belive me, I have. Although my brain isn't doing a good work, with keeping myself up to date. Well, life's a rollercoaster, baby! I just need to say that I didn't need to ad this to all the things around me...
Looking at good inspiration work now, is what I need.