Autumn bipolarity.

 When autumn arrives, there is a certain swift in the air, not only is it cooler. It has come to be a sort of change for me. Like the knowledge that the sun is slowly going to shine less and it will get darker. I take comfort in that. I don't like flickering lights, it is truly beautiful but my head can't stand it. Others can, I admire them. I love all the colours. So by wearing sunglasses, hiding behind a big scarf and pretend that I don't have a head that is slowly going to rip me apart is a way out. I'm good at pretending and it has become an advantage. It's how I manage it, I have to go on pretending. A little bit dramatic, but it seems to work.

/A

The red autumn...

The forest looks so amazing with all the reds, like this. Now I'm longing for that big, bright shining moon.

/A

Autumn and darker days...

It's autumn and all the beautiful colours are coming, but I can't wait for darker days. Those when I don't need to feel dreadful all the time or so happy that I could die, can it be somewhere in the middle?

/A

New...

  ...hope you'll enjoy!

Xx
/Anna

Seasons in the sun?

I miss the lovely swedish summer. The autumn is here, this morning it's sunny, tomorrow it's something else, maybe cause I'm sick and that it would just be my luck.

Love
/Anna

Only the beginning?

When I woke up today, it was a mist layer over Stockholm, magical! The cold was there in the sun and I was able to wear my long grey wool cardigan - without itching! So beautiful autumnday is only the thing in my mind (I wish). If it wasn't for my shoulder/overarm that is hurting like hell... We'll see tomorrow! And maybe the trees are more yellow and red, than now? This season is truly making my head spin, ups and downs are just a beginning of it...

Xx

/Anna

Understand?

Can I sleep the autumn away? Cause right now, I don't stand it.

But all the lovely colours are coming, that will probably do some good (they always do)?

How is it understandable to hate something you also love?

/Anna

The autumn is here...

It's really autumn, I'm dreading this season when it gets rough - as always!

But I love the clear icy air, the frost on the grounds and all the colors...

Tomorrow it's workout, and other fun stuff!

Maybe clean out my closet a little bit more?

Xx

/Anna

Warm still days...

The warmth came back today... Happy me, that's all I can say! The beginning of late summer is here, that later part of summer, when it becomes warm and yet much more cold, but some more days of warmth and loveliness aren't that bad, they are most welcome.

But come on? All that old drama is killing me - cause I couldn't care less anymore.

Xx

/Anna

A magical life?

All of a sudden, it's autumn - I feel it in every inch of my body. Still it's indian summer - but the rain is horrible, I love rain (sometimes) but not when it's becoming cold. But right now I feel just fine, nothing else. But the nagging feeling is back and I don't want that. How can you live your life, when you still have trouble with realising that sometimes it's all about acceptance.

Today, me and my brothers went and saw The Sorcerer's Apprentice and we all got something completley different from it, we are so different and they are the best men in my life. And a very nice movie to watch, just for fun. Love mythological and magical movies - with a twist. I wish that I was in a world that magic excisted. A very magical and enchanted world.

Xx

/Anna

Live, life, ?

First of august and the moon is lovely, old memories are haunting and everything is still very present. I've never felt so alive, and maybe that's a cliché of saying, but it strucks me over and over again how very easy it is to take it for granted. I've worked my ass of getting myself happier, but still allowing the very essences of sorrow in me to. I feel that the autumn is moving closer and I don't want that, I really don't.

Love

/Anna

Weather changes = moodswings.

I'm just gonna let a picture stand for todays writing, I don't think I have anything to share for the moment. It's autumn and my brain hates that, truly hates how the weather change and how it goes from warm to cold. But I love all the colors, they're amazing.


Autumnkisses
/Anna