Today is the eve when all of Sweden lights big fires and celebrate that it's now real spring - but looking outside, it's not in particular springtime. I'm not that into celebrating this, but I am probably going to take a walk a look at a fire. I love fires, they are so powerful, beautiful and magical - so what's not to love?
Since Aqua released Roses are red in 96-97 (here in Sweden) I've always loved them! They are so fantastic with their different songs and videos! How could a little girl of 10 not love them? This "new" song of them is really nice to. Listen and enjoy!
I just got back from my new pshysical therapist and it looks like I really gonna do this. I feel like it's now or never, not later. Holding my breath hoping that a change will come without me making it. Well, we'll see what will happen. But I know my body is in need of it, badly. So here we go! No turning back, it's my health and I'm starting to realise that I do want to live until I'm 70... Is it time to be healthy for real?
I love this commercial from Dior, made by Sofia Coppola. It's just perfect, the pastels, the feeling, the clothes, flowers, pastryworks, everything seems to flow together. But Sofia is a very talanted woman so it doesn't suprise me and with doing for Dior, well that is lovely and wonderful!
Woke up early to get myself a Skinny Puppy ticket for their concert this summer - and I got one! Sounds nice to finally see them! Today I have to sit down and relax, maybe go out in the sun... If the weather is nice enough!
Oh, on wednesday my physical therapy is starting, can't wait!
See you later, I promise to update with new pictures tonight!
Home, tired but very happy! Had an exquicite day today, only sleeping for about 4 hours. But we got off and did two very different things. Being this creative is a drug, you only want more. Right now it's time to slow down, and only give you some behind-the-scenes from these shoots. Enjoy them, cause you know that I can't show you anything more!
Busy, busy, busy as always. Tomorrow is another shoot with Daniel Stigefelt and the Bouquet series. Love being creative and tomorrow will be so much fun. Now I have to start beading with lots of pearls... From my guess - this is going to be a long night! Haha! Here are some of the things I'm thinking about for tomorrow!
I'll give you more later, right now I don't have time!
The 8th of august, I'm seeing Cohen again, I saw Cohen in 2008 and that was one of the best concerts I've been to. I started crying, listened and thought he was one of a kind - in my case he is. He's magical... I wonder if I will feel the same, probably. I'm really impressed by this little man, and all the words he sings, can't wait to hear him sing again!
Today me and my mum went to Stockholms auktionsverk, to look at modern pieces. I sat in the ball made by Eero Aarnio, loved it from the moment I laid my eyes upon it for a lot of years ago, now I sat down in one and I love it even more! Give me!
I had a wonderful chat with my friend Anna, just a few minutes ago.
I need my "old" but "new" body back, so that I can make these gourgeous dresses, they will be a smash! I just need to start walking every morning before I start doing anything else. Drink lots of water and eat healthy... My mind craves to create, right this very instant!
It's often said that when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. I like that, but I really like lemons as they are but I love lemonade, my all time favourite, during the hot summer days. This upcoming I'm not going to buy it, I will make my own just because I'm being more ecologic. If you look outside, up on those clouds - the expression gives you another meaning, cause let's be honest... The weather is not fun to deal with today. I woke up to snow, ever since then it's been cloudy, but that doesn't bother me that much, what bothers me is that it's freaking cold inside again and I really don't have time being ill. Well I'm off to my baby now, working with lovely little fabrics and an arm that doesn't work! But I will make lemonade of all the lemons!
Packing my suitcase and getting ready to go into town for a photoshoot this afternoon. Lovely to be creative! So I'm putting up notes and make sure that I'm brining everything that I need, haha! I'm not gonna tell you what we're up to. You all just have to drop by later this year to look at the finals, if the case are that you're in Stockholm.
Wish me luck today!
And what the hell is up with the weather? It's going to kill me. I promise.
One word; Rollercoaster. That's what I'm tumbling in during this period of time. But I get out alive as always. I wish that I could write something other than my nonsense about me, all that happens inside and outside me. Yesterday was a perfect week (almost) but it was good! Now I'm in the rollercoaster going up and then down. Sorry I can't write about the stuff that matters, all the ash from Iceland that flows around the entire europe. For me it's just the earth saying, hello, I still have something to say and that we deserves it. But that's my thought. And right now I'm dreadful and sickened of it all.
In a few minutes I will not think about this at all - I will be totally happy. Well, what was that word? Rollercoaster, yes...
I can't get sick now, I have to stay healthy and well. I don't have any time being sick. But life does what it wants to. I can handle it. But I don't want to have headache, fever and a foggy mind. But that will pass. And I have so many things too look forward to. Can't wait until we get everything in rolling!
Today my body is a shipwreck, it twist and turns as it want to. I feel like a balloon, I'm not kidding. What should I do? Just bite and deal with it, which I have to do every single time this happens? I'm tired off it, okey? But my mind is happy, as far as I know! But I hate pain, and I want it to go away! A painless day, want to exchange anyone? I sound like a spolish complaing little brat and that's what I am right now, but I could and would chop everything off, if that was a possibility.
Things are alright, I've had the best week in a very long time now... I'm utterly at comfort with (almost) everything. These feelings of loving to live is still overwhelming sometimes, it still knocks me out but keeps me above. How can you explain? I can't. I can't put words on joy or happiness. Can anyone tell me exact how it should feel? Or is it individual for each and everyone? Who's to say that your happiness is like mine or any others? Please tell me, I want to know - need to know. But these feelings are just there without me doing anything to make them be there - I enjoy this while it's lasting. I live and why not make the best of it those moment that I can?
Hope all of you have wonderful days to! Missing so many of my friends that it breaks my heart, and I think about you!
I found this picture on flickr, and I just fell for it. So me, right now. Just take a look! A mix of fairytales, love, bright, all those summer feelings in just one little beautful painted picture! All the love I feel isn't enough, it's never enough. Dreams of fairytales are one of the most pleasant things in my life.
Today I'll start sketching on things that I will sew, yes I'm dragging my ass to my baby to get some things done. Haha, you'll have to see later, cause I won't tell you anything! This is a beautiful day, so I'm thinking of taking a cup of tea, placing myself on my balcony and enjoy the sun, just for a while. Read a book, flip through magazines and just relax, write and do whatever comes into my mind! Then it's time to celebrate my little brother who's now 16. Gosh, he's old(er)!
Today I met up with lovely Nina and catched up! Talked about future shoots and all kinds off stuff. It's about time that I get my own homepage that I can put up my portfolio on. But how should it look? And I'm a complete mess when it comes to do that kind of designing, so I'll probably ask someone I know. But I can tell you this, we have a special thing coming up! I truly have amazing and wonderful people around me, I'm blessed. I feel like I'm in love with everything in one second, the next not. Life is funny sometimes, just because that I for just a week ago didn't wanna be here!
In a minute I'll be getting myself ready and go off! Good things. I have two beauty shoot that are from the shoots I'm currently working on with Daniel Stigefelt and a whole team. I won't publish them right now, cause they're gonna be in a exhibition, but the ones I have are beauty so I can publish those. I'll publish them separately and maybe tonight.
I have to get ready, it's a beautiful day outside, the sky is blue - it could have been worse!
I have so much energy, that I might burst any minute! I've been out all day, meeting people, talking, been in the sun, out in the air and all of a sudden I feel that I have all the energy in the world. When did this happen? How did it happen? Maybe I should stop asking and start enjoying? That sounds like a plan. Tomorrow I'm meeting my wonderful friend and the lovely photographer Nina! Lovely! Aah, I have too many thoughts and things in my mind and I need some sleep but doubt that I will get it! I have the feeling that I'm in love with life, that feeling is one of the best ones in the world. My butterfly is breathing and I'm not trying to stop it from doing so.
The sun is shining, I'm pretty happy with my life and I have wonderful friends around me. Thank you for those! Right now I really don't have any need of writing here, but I do it as reminder of my moodswings and my state of mind, I really have this as a backup, looking back, seeing things differently and understanding some parts. But right now at this moment, everything is just fine, I'm smiling and I'm happy just because - and I'm very satisfied with that.
I feel very pleased today, I don't know why, I woke up and even though I'm in excruciating pain I smiled. What has happened? Maybe I'm just having a very good day, I hope so. That would be very welcome in my brain, just a day when I feel good. Those days are rare, until it's the real summer without the always constant flickering light, although my ambivalent side might love that spring flickering light if it's a good day. I can wait to smell the lilacs, oh wonderful!
Today we had another shoot for the Bouquet series, lovely creativity is rushing through my body! I love doing things and having people that are creative and loving around me helps very much! Thank you all for today! Here's one behind the scene picture! Nothing that will show the outcome :)
I'm so tired that I might drop right down any minute.
I want summer. I want winter. I want lemonade. I want love. I want passion. I want hate. I want fairytales. I want carousels. I want happiness. I want strawberries. I want moonlight. I want cold. I want escapism. I want miracles. I want music. I want lemons. I want sugar. I want raw. I want sweet. I want tears. I want pain. I want misery. I want laughter. I want stars. I want darkness. I want dust. I want diamonds. I want porcelain dolls. I want life. I want death. I want to feel. I want to live. I want to die. I want all that could have been and all that was and all that is to come.
My mind is tormented, I need to be in a quiet place where no one can touch me or speak towards me. I really hate this, that is the only certain thing about this. But I'll keep hanging on, that's what I'm good at. So tomorrow will be another day.
This is just me, right now. I've sticken by it, since I heard it the first time, more than 10 years ago. Although it may break my heart, it still seems to make it better. This is both beauty and ugly, angry, sad... I don't really have any words as I never have when it comes to this.
I have lived my life so far, in the knowing that things happen for a reason. I still think so, maybe it's that I want to think so. If things happen for a reason, it doesn't have to end up meaningless, it becomes something you can use later, you have all the bad and good experiences with you. A meaningless life, doesn't seem to friendly. When you look at me and don't know me, I don't think that you would assume that I have stuff in my luggage that aren't what they should or would look like. Never judge a book by it's cover, we all know that by now.
Now I'm gonna sit with my precious baby and make nice things happen!
Today I've been to Nordiska Museet here in Stockholm, loved the exhibit of Fashion, although I felt I've already seen it before, maybe cause I'm a junkie at visisting museums wherever I travel - and fashion is my main big interest. But it's always nice to see things in some sort of a new way. Go and check if you're passing by.
My body is now screaming for some sleep, so all the ache might easen...
One of the most amazing songs ever, I my opinion. I've loved it since I saw it many years ago, still do. What to do without these lyrics and this voice? This speaks just as it is and brings up all the thoughts and questions. They are in your head.
Why does everything has to happen at the same time? It seems like everything just sweeps you of your feets. Another thing is that I really do want to kill my body, and the weather, but it will get better... Although I can't control everything. Do any you have a need of controlling things around you? I need to know where things are, except that in my room there's a total mess. But that's another thing. I wish I could write about funny things, about love and just happy thought, but that's not me at the moment. It will come back... I just need time.
But yesterday was lovely with my dear Josefine, love you honey!
Laundry, fixing with e-mails and ordinary stuff is my day full off, later I'm meeting up my dear "old" friend Josefine, have to meet her! One of my dearest and loveliest friends I've ever had. I've known her for more than 10 years (oh, that's a decade!) and still many more years to come! I'm never letting her disappear as a friend, she's truly one of my very own one of a kind gals'! It almost always ends with a laugh that's so funny (not really) that we laugh our stomachs into pain and our eyes into tears, what's not to love?
It's sunny outside. Taking a walk outside might be a good thing for me, I think I'm gonna do that instead of sitting here, but I will give you a wonderful creation from Theirry Mugler, made in 90's, magical and beautiful that's all I can say and it's a fantasy. I know this collection is called Chimera, I think it's from the greek mythology, adventures reading them to, always looking at this for inspiration and mindblowing experiences!
The 1st of April, fool someone. I don't find that any amusing, so I let all the other ones who want to do it, do it. Haha! Anyway, a new month, new thoughts, things to do. Hopefully not as dreadful as March was - I wish for warmer weather, real spring and a cocktail with some nice friends, or maybe just go away to friends, just getting away from Stockholm. We'll see. Hope you all had a nice day, it's the beginning of easter and I hope that you all get eggs with candy!