It's kind of interesting how you can switch your moods without controlling it, upside down, inside out, throwing all your emotions on the floor - with the feeling of emptiness, left with nothing. Alone. People who don't have this, can't even imagine how it is. When you're down - in my case, I'd rather have a big tumour than have the feelings I feel. When you're up - you are invincible, nothing can take you down. Both of these conditions leave you empty, cause you take every second to endure yourself. Nothing is for granted, it's tormenting you. You have no idea, until you've had it. I just needed to write myself off.