Have you ever had the feeling that somethings is really to good to be true? I'm standing there right now, having that feeling - that this surreal happiness is something that isn't going to last. Even though I've felt it some time now. I can't belive I'm smiling, I'm smiling through everything - it's so hard to explain. I didn't know that you could smile from your heart, smile through tears. I didn't belive tears could be good. So now I'm sitting here, alive after all... Not even dreading the day that dreaming and living ends, cause I know one thing - I've been alive and I can smile through misery. But damnit, I'm living and that feeling is the best feeling I've ever had so far - and I'm still rising.