Our memory in our brains is amazing, you can remember somethings so irrelevant that it's stupid, in this case I knew that a song I looked for was on a specific CD that I haven't seen for more than 3 years - and I found it. It's quite impressive that you can remember things that way. When we still are on this thread I can tell you that it's really happened things, I can now listen to anything without feeling the strongest emotions I used to feel, I just feel and it don't bother me. Think that you have have been at a very shitty place in your life, where you connect to this music, and now no longer does. It's amazing how acceptance is crucial to get better. Steps are now finally taking forward, not backwards.