If you've never been down, you can never know how it is to feel good or just fine. You would never appreciate all the small things you take for granted, you sometimes aren't aware of that you're alive. I'm alive and I'm living on both good and bad sides, today, tomorrow 'til it ends. And this is my life, I'm jumping up and down now going in to a state where I am comfortably numb, but tomorrow is another day. Someday I will tell you all about this, but not today, I'm not ready.