How to loose and yet to gain?

What to say? I have too many thoughts on my mind too share with all of you. Things has to happen for a reason, that's how I see it. But sometimes you just need a day off, or an hour at peace with your mind. I have a need to go higher, to strive for perfection. I know nothing is perfect - but the goal of making it perfect is great and keeps me hunting and wanting for more.

I'm slowly letting the old me go, letting myself become the one I want to be. I will always have the "old" me, I know that, but how to loose and yet gain yourself when I know that she's not me and she never will be. My values of whom I'm aiming for is in the views of my eyes and I'm leaving some parts of me behind, just as simple as she wasn't the one I wanted to be.

Love

/Anna

Values, guidelines, again!

Values, are they hard or easy. Either way they are the guidelines to your life. Some people have said that the values are easy to me, I just can't believe that, just because some people do things to please others, your values are not suppose to be about pleasing anyone but yourself and how you want to act and be for you - others come second. It's so easy to say that, I want a partner, I want children, I want the whole package. But that's not values, that's the materialistic things. Values are who you want to be and to be aware that you will change throughout your life. And there's no right or wrong, just you. Struggle with those questions and how I want to pursue my life, led me right into agony and frustration, but something good is already coming out. I'm transforming.

If you all wonder why I tend to write, I think I've said this before. You don't have to read, cause this is just something in the neverending space.

Now I'm gonna watch Aladdin, and eat some nice food!

Love

/Anna

Guilty or not, what's my value?

Calmed panic? Does that really exist? I do not know, therefore the question. A part is ripping everything inside out, the other is putting it back where it belongs... What would you do? I just go with the flow, at least trying to do that. But reminding myself that I am human, and working for a better state regarding my values, thoughts and my responsibility that I have as a human. I can't say, that wasn't my fault all the time, hiding from what I don't want to touch or feel. Neither can't I deny that one thing I have is not my fault at all, but can I blame the genetics all the time, and where do I land? Am I guilty, should I hide or run, is it my fault? Or does my or your truth sometimes slides under or above?

Divided kisses

/Anna

Do you value yourself as much as you shoud?

Do you have values? For yourself, and not attemting to perform exceedingly well for another person/partner? Do you have them for you and only you? Do you at the same time have goals that you want to achive in a time not to far away? I'm trying to figure out my values, as my goals in my life. That means I'm taking the actual thoughts from my head into actions, for me. I need the structure and I need my brain to start working as I want it, with methods and knowledge.

What are your values? And how do you make them into your ordinary life?

Xx

/Anna