A picture from now...

For a week ago, my dear friend Cookie took this picture of me! Oh, how much do I love that little magical woman? She my little golden star. She will always be.

Xx
/A

Just a minute...

Home, after a weekend up in Gävle and a very lovely one to! Lot's of laughs, wine and more fun... I truly enjoy those people, thank you.

I'm so freakin' tired that I'm not in the mood of writing anything more.

I still haven't decided if I'm gonna put this one on hold for just a minute...

Xx

/Anna

Lovely times!

A wonderful day that included spending time with my dear old friend Eleonor, sweet bliss! I also got to spend time with her lovely little kid Cesar, he's such a cutie! A very lovely time! I wish I had uploaded all the pictures so I could show you the little cutiepie, another day.

I've had a beautiful day, and if I didn't have blisters all over my feet I would go out and walk, I wish I could run, well all the other good things will come eventually! I have all this extra energy that I don't know where to go or what to do...

Love

/Anna

A lovely day!

Today I spent the entire day in town, fun, but lots of people! Due to the marrige of our Crown Princess. I'm not a royalist, but I had to look at her dress and hopefully just celebrate love! Well, I think we should celebrate love more! Frida and me, walked around, talked, laughed and had the best time and it was so hard saying goodbye, even if she's only an hour away! She's a ray of sunshine, anyone who's had the pleasure of getting to know her, know that! So thank you for today my dearest honeybum!

Tonight a night when a lot of things are going on, but for me to put on the high heels, a nice dress and makeup, is unbearable - and it kills me, cause Basement Jaxx and Mike Snow is playing! Where the hell is my partymood, has it gone out the window?

Xx

/Anna

Simply one of the best!

Tomorrow I'd be spending time with one of the people whom I'm closest to, today. I love her dearly with all my heart. She's that girl that you can tell anything without the feeling of getting judged or feeling utterly wrong. She's my Frida, the shy, gentle and sparkle girl, who I see to rarely! Shame on me! So tomorrow I'll be spending my day with her, simple as that!

Love

/Anna

Laundry, love, laughs!

Laundry, fixing with e-mails and ordinary stuff is my day full off, later I'm meeting up my dear "old" friend Josefine, have to meet her! One of my dearest and loveliest friends I've ever had. I've known her for more than 10 years (oh, that's a decade!) and still many more years to come! I'm never letting her disappear as a friend, she's truly one of my very own one of a kind gals'! It almost always ends with a laugh that's so funny (not really) that we laugh our stomachs into pain and our eyes into tears, what's not to love?

Love

/Anna

Some thoughts in the rollercoaster...

As everyone by this point know, I'm going around in a rollercoaster, haha! But I think that most good things will come out of it. I'm catching up with people and other things, you don't need to know more. The ones involved are there and that's the thing that is important. I love living, and I wouldn't trade anything of this into something else. I've had some of them in my life for more than 8 years and it's been a living ride not of this world.

Love

/Anna

Amicus verus est rara avis...

I have some friends that are more special than others, that are really hard to describe, one of them is her, who came into my life in mid 2002, starstruck me with her words, her beauty and her strength. Believed in me when no one else would, screamed, got angry, laughed and loved through everything we went through. She and I have a very bumpy road that we've been travelled on, still travelling - but always managed to get ourselves together when we went through hell and came back up. It's been a very special relationship with this woman - a relationship that I wouldn't trade for anything in this world. We had our fights, our laughs til' we'd start crying and all the endless talking about life, love and what would become of us.

In my opinion we turned out very well, still standing and still in this with more love than we ever would imagined, I am truly blessed of having her as one of my most truly beloved friends.

I love that you love me...

/Anna

A wonderful yesterday!

Yesterday my dear friend Emma came over and from my side of the view - we had a blast! Such a fun, cute and wonderful woman! She's just special! And that she and I can listen to the soundtrack from Mulan out in the freezing cold (waiting for a train) says it all! How funny isn't it when two people starts to dance to that or Technoman and jump of joy? Haha, you make the best of what you got! Thank you honey! And yes, we're gonna see Gaga, again! Love!

Now, I've got things to do, we'll just see what happens!

Love

/Anna

I hear a spark of life shining.

Yesterday everything went back to being somewhat normal, at least in my eyes, I went over to Elva and Kjell and their lovely little son Alpha, he is so cute, I can't help but laugh! I can not, not have a good time with them.
So I'm knocking on wood, hoping for the best, not anything else - and hope that this mood or something like this is still in me, for the rest of the week, I know I have the support around me, and today that's amazing, cause without people who would see me for me, and accept it - is just one of the most precious thing I have. And it hasn't come easy, but it's a beginning for my life and it's worth fighting for.


Xx
/Anna

Come join the party, it's a celebration!

I'm in a partymood, I want to go out clubbing, but at the same time, it's to exhausting, I don't get myself sometimes. Maybe I just need to see lots of people dancing and I haven't been out clubbing for a while. But what happens today? It's a boring saturday, just a typical saturday. We'll see. I want to go out dancing! To big clubhits, nothing else! Giiive me! And as always I have big troubles with my wardrobe ;)


This asymmetric dress from Marc Jacobs in velvet is just so nice, give me!

Lots of love!
/Anna

One of the sweetest things ever!

Oh, I have to show all of you who hasn't seen it on my facebook, the flowers I got from Emilia, on my birthday, my wonderful one-of-a-kind diamond! Just sending me flowers is enough. I know it's not my birthday, it was almost a month ago, but I uploaded the pictures yesterday...


The note that came with was the best:
Happy Birthday!
I miss you!
Glass!

Coming from Emilia, that is pure real love! She doesn't give away those words easily...

Xx
/Anna

Tell me know, what do you see?

Something has fallen into me, I know it'll be gone in just a few minutes, cause that's is about how long I have anxiety nowadays - it's gonna be gone when I've finished writing this. But I miss alot of people, you know who you are, so I'm not going to say your names. But some of you, honestly - I don't miss. You should all know that all of my choices has been made with a careful mind - and I've choosen it to be this way.


And yeah, I'm thinking about doing a makeover of my blog, we'll see.

Xx
/Anna

When two wrongs make a right.

To make things a little bit more of a misery for me, not only can't I eat anything I want... My cell is stupid and acting like an obnoxious teenager. I hate it, so if it's off, then it's that. I am going to get it fixed, but right now I'm trying to figure out other ways to try to make it work. Let's just hope for the best.

Yesterday I spent 2 hours talking to one of my oldest friends, Malin, things are quite funny, I get pictures from her and, I just can't stop laughing looking at some off them, I know she's laughing to. We were so young - back then. So innocent in a way. Oh, sometimes I wish I could go back - but I'm pretty happy here. But it's the wonderful moments I miss, the love, the naive young little souls trembling higher to grow up. Ín cases like these words are meaningless, cause they don't say shit to you. A picture on the other hand is what speaks to you.


Love
/Anna

Changes, do you need them? I do.

Today I called a dietist, although I only got the message that I have to call on monday, she's not back yet. I really have to change everything in my life, I'm in need of a change. I need to be healthier and stop having the urge to saw myself apart, cause the pain my friends is not in some particullary friendly type of friend. It is now killing my body, slowly and very exhausting, cause when I have aches like this, it's hard to be nice, but I'm used to it, so it just to bite hard and keep your mouth shut, cause nobody likes when people complain.


Today I'm meeting my lovely friend Karin and we're going to eat some food and discuss everything, thank you that she is one hell of a girl that always makes me smile. So I'm cheering for that. Loovely! Can't wait.

Xx
/Anna

What's it all worth?

I have nothing to say or wanting to say to anyone right now. Except that I'm meeting my wonderful Anna this friday, how lovely isn't that? But some things are bothering me, don't really know, maybe it's because it's soon autumn and I don't like that. Not at all.


/Anna

Right here, Right now.

Yesterday I talked very much with one of my dearest & nearest friends of all time, Malin. I realize now that it's going to be hard without clichées.I don't have any words for this woman, cause she isn't a girl anymore, neither am I, I'm speechless. We talked about those past years, and it feels like light years ago... It's not the present, it's beyond past. We talked about stuff that matters and those that don't. I got to thinking then, what's real friendship, is it when you can call up someone, can smile at the past and yet still talk about it, is it when you've been through a up-side-down hellride and the person is still standing beside you? When you've had wonderful times. Cause if that's real friendship, then what we have is friendship, real true, unique friendship.

This is taken some years back, and yes we've laughed and cried.

With love
/Anna

My baby don't mess around and, This I know for sure...

Yesterday was fab! You can never be wrong in the company of these lovely ladies, named Elva, Lisa and Nina. It was a smash and I took my first step into a world I've refused to be in until now. I've been at one club before called Teatron in 2007, but that's way back and not like Café Opera... But I do adore the ladies I were with and I couldn't have asked for anything else. Today I'm on mute... - but happy.

Xx
/Anna

Travelling down their own road watching the signs as they go, I think I'll follow my heart, It's a very good place to start...

I'm currently hating my aches in my body and are so freaking happy about seeing Madonna on saturday that I don't know what I'm gonna do... And yes, I'm meeting Anna in about just two weeks, how lovely won't that be? She is a heroine for me. Always makes me smile and make me comfortable. So seeing her again may be the best thing this summer, sorry to everybody else, but when you haven't seen a person for a very long time you get very excited about meeting them, in my case, overwelmed. But this weekend it's Gothenburg (again) and Madonna that's in my head, if I get to hear my favorite song, I think I will melt and never exsist again, but hey I can at least say that I saw her.


And yeah, I can't find a single thing in the stores right know... This is not my favorite seasone, but black always work, so why not? And yeah, you may hate me now, but I'd love to have a fur...


Xx
/Anna

Love and confusion!

Today I've just relaxed, spent time with a friend and then with my mother, we walked quite a bit. Stockholm is a really nice when it is summer, I'm in love all over again. And that's how it's always is. In all other cases with me, I'm a litte bit confused... Why? Anyway, now I'm going to chitchat over the phone with one of the best girls in the world, my Anna!

Xx
/Anna