Hope has a place...

I've been without milk for about 5 days, and I can guarantee that this is really hard. I don't think it's lactos, it's the allergy and it's slowly processing it's way through my guts. Do I dislike this so much that I would cut myself open to stop the aches, yes I would. I overslept today, so tomorrow I'm going to call the dietist. I need to do that. Oh please, I would do anything to make this pain go away. We'll see what happens. I'm just hoping it's gonna get better. I want to be healthy and well.


In all other aspects, I'm looking through all my stuff and do a really big cleanse, not throwing anything of course... How could I? I love them. And yes I need so much more things, and I need place to put it.

Xx
/Anna

Cravings, you can't have!

I'm not only craving things that I know I can't eat now, I'm desperate to have them, just because I can't! You get the picture don't you? I know for a fact that it takes time for my body to cleanse, but it doesn't get any better. I know it will take time, but I hate that the cravings come and you can't do anything to stop them. Well well, this is life - deal with it. But I'm sick of feeling like I'm gonna faint or puke just because I'm nauseous, I dislike this so much. I'm going to call a doctor later... And I want carrotcake with frosting on it!


Yesterday I had a meeting about new photoshoots, I'm not telling you anything until they're done... But it's going to be fab. I'm giving you something else that I love to look at, for now.


Now I'm gonna go figure out how to make everything doable without milk... We'll wait a week until we cut out gluten totally.

Xx
/Anna

When two wrongs make a right.

To make things a little bit more of a misery for me, not only can't I eat anything I want... My cell is stupid and acting like an obnoxious teenager. I hate it, so if it's off, then it's that. I am going to get it fixed, but right now I'm trying to figure out other ways to try to make it work. Let's just hope for the best.

Yesterday I spent 2 hours talking to one of my oldest friends, Malin, things are quite funny, I get pictures from her and, I just can't stop laughing looking at some off them, I know she's laughing to. We were so young - back then. So innocent in a way. Oh, sometimes I wish I could go back - but I'm pretty happy here. But it's the wonderful moments I miss, the love, the naive young little souls trembling higher to grow up. Ín cases like these words are meaningless, cause they don't say shit to you. A picture on the other hand is what speaks to you.


Love
/Anna

Good girls, gone bad...

I'm just gonna show some photos of some women that I really like the looks of. We'll see what you think... I just love them in these photos! Enjoy!

Cat Deeley

Angelina Jolie

Vanessa Paradise

Xx
/Anna

And I just bite the dust, all over again!

Cutting out everything that includes milk, is very very hard. And now we have come to terms with that it can be other combinations, like gluten from wheat - so I really don't know what to do - neither how I should feel about this. Because I can't go around feeling nauseous and like it's twisting my body upside down. Or am I just sick again? Not a good time to be sick... So I'm just standing here, happy about the fact that I'm not unaware of these sort of things, my mother is an allergic, she is alive and living. I've grown up with it. But milk and gluten? Can I choose? So it's just to bite the dust and seek a doctor, thank someone that I'm going to a dietist now.

This is my mum and me, love her!

In other cases I'm pretty happy.

Xx
/Anna

A crave and a aching body!

Well to start with something nice, I found myself a beret, and yes it's exactly the way I want it. Love that I have some luck, sometimes. I loove it, and yes I'll probably been seen it that one later this autumn, with a nice black coat and nice boots, of course with highheels! Can you expect me to be otherwise? Oh, yes, I'm looking so much for big earrings, I love them big and they can't be heavy to wear they have to be light, haha!


The bad thing is that I have a huge, gigantic problem with milk, I think it is that. The thing is I can't start buy lactosfree products, this isn't the normal lactosintolerance it's milk allergy and it has to to with the proteins, if this is it. So bye bye! Luckily I'm soon going to a dietist to get a better picture over food and all the things with me - and it couldn't have come in a better time, cause now my body is aching so much that I can't take it.

Xx
/Anna

Give me a red beret!

I need a red beret, and I really can't seem to find it anywhere... I've found other ones, but it has to look a specific way, and yes it's going to be in a photoshoot. I'll bet you that it'll be marvelous. Like this one on the photo. Loove!


Xx
/Anna

She's not me,she never will be...

In this world, you have to be prepared for changes, all the time. Sometimes, changes floats around us telling us that we have to change, sometimes it don't. I like changes and I like that my world isn't black or white, it has all the colors I want. I just know that even though things change, some things remain the same - and I'm just pleased to know that I've come so much longer than I thought I ever would for about one year ago. I'm not her - anymore. I'm me.

Xx
/Anna

Something new? Something old?

Never close your eyes, because you never know what you might be inspired of. All I can say is that it's the most truthful sentence, I've heard for many years. It's the unbearable and the conditional truth about being creative, never shut your eyes. You always have to stay on top, keep your head forward and never look back, unless it's what you should do. Fashion is all about making it new, breaking boundaries, compleeting with old elements, but never take steps back - you can't deny that the only way working in fashion is to be moving forward. So I'm gonna keep walking. And take the old things with me on the way, cause you need them to, cause without them you can't make anything new.


Xx
/Anna

Weather changes = moodswings.

I'm just gonna let a picture stand for todays writing, I don't think I have anything to share for the moment. It's autumn and my brain hates that, truly hates how the weather change and how it goes from warm to cold. But I love all the colors, they're amazing.


Autumnkisses
/Anna

Fashion is my religion.

I stayed up all night reading magazines, after I got home. I'm finding myself in love all over again, oh, yes, I can say that I love stuff, but I'm in love yet again. I don't know what it is. But something wants me to go as high as I can go and never in my life stop growing, I'd like to be like Grace Coddington, working at magazines by the age of 65, and don't want to stop doing it. Never. Some people doesn't get why fashion is such a big issue for me. I live for fashion, not all the time, but most of it. I get into my own little magical world when I see all the clothes and I've always loved colors, patterns, romantic, sculptural things that are around me, everything that touches my soul, I reinvent to something I can use. Fashion isn't just clothes I just put on me, it's my state of mind - where I go when I don't know where to go. It's the only thing in my life that is rock solid and no offense, I love to have it that way.


Xx
/Anna

Leading ladies of the fashion world.

Yesterday I saw The September Issue, and I can guarantee that it's well spent money, it's funny, sophisticated and you just see that people aren't acting, they are who they are. That's why I love the fashion industry. People might feel, like Anna Wintour self said, intimidated by people who have these jobs, cause they're not the cool kids. All I can say is that Anna Wintour and Grace Coddington (especially her) runs fashion. Grace is an amazing stylist and she is so good at what she does. She said in the movie, that you have to be cruel and have your elbows out to make it, and that's true, if you don't like a thing, then it has to go. Anyway, go look at this now, you'll get a glimpse into a world you may never be in.


Xx
/Anna

The September Issue.

Tonight I'm going to see The September Issue, with my dear old friend Hanna. It sounds like we're going to have an amazing time tonight, I'll tell you. The september Issue is about how they made, it's behind the scenes of one of the biggest fashion magazines ever, with Anna Wintour and her staff working. In the fashion world she is known to be one of the coldest persons there'll be. She is the Icequeen and she is the one on top, the one controlling everything else. She is also known for being the person that made The Devil wears Prada so famous. So now it's time to see how she really is.


Xx
/Anna

Do you need me, like I need you? Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye? Was that you passing me by?

I can't belive what I'm about to say, but I'm amazed over the fact that he still can fuck my mind up, in a disorder and turbulent chaos that really is tormented. I'm bruising myself up - yet again. I promised myself to never do that. Do I need a closure, oh yes indeed. He was gone, now he's back and it feels like I'm standing still, I haven't moved an inch. But belive me, I have. Although my brain isn't doing a good work, with keeping myself up to date. Well, life's a rollercoaster, baby! I just need to say that I didn't need to ad this to all the things around me...




Looking at good inspiration work now, is what I need.

Xx
/Anna

Happiness is fluid.

I have nothing to say, my head trumbles in it's own mess I'm making, I'm feeling fine, but something isn't as it should be. I need new things to look at, new things to break the borders with. I'm walking and feeling quite proud that I'm still doing it, cause this feels like a dream - and I'm ready to take the punch anytime, but it's not coming. I don't know why? Maybe cause I'm happy for the first time? Happiness is fluid, one day it's like nothing like you've never seen before, next day it's calm but still there.


I need to start sewing clothes, I need a velvet dress, give me! Please, in a dark color...

Xx
/Anna

If you put your heart into it!

I'm all into dance right now, I can't get enough of looking at dance things, everything, movies, people dancing is just wonderful! I just want to start dancing again... I know I stopped for a reason, and a good one - but it breaks my heart slowly to know that. Anyway, I might put me up on some dancing classes, cause you can if you put your heart into it!



Xx
/Anna

Ghosts, vampires and Ramalama!

I love this dance so freakin' much, so everybody who hasn't seen it, need to take a look. Just look, the dance is extraordinary, I don't even know where all the inspiration come from? I just love it! Give me moore!


Choreographed by Wade Robson

Xx
/Anna

Happy birthday, You're now a year closer!

Today it's my 23:rd birthday, but for real, I'm not that into celebrating. What should I celebrate? I'm a year older, but I don't feel any wiser, I learn every day. I don't feel that I have anything to celebrate, but a nice dinner with some friends wouldn't be wrong... I celebrate some other things instead. Like it's been 5 years soon, that's pretty big for me. Bigger than, that I am now a year older than before.


And yes, his name was in the mail today, I don't even know why, to laugh or cry? Give me something.

Love
/Anna

Stones in roll.

Today it's dentist time, only to find out that nothing is wrong with my teeths - and that is something I need to check up. Anyhow, dentist time.

In other means I'm just looking for inspiration for our shoot. And trying to get ahold of some of the stylists I really like... It's like this, when one stone is on the roll, everything else around it starts to move, as anyone knows. I'm scared, new territory, but at the same time really excited.


Xx
/Anna

Lost of words.

I'm out of words, maybe they'll come back later when I feel like sharing with all of you... Maybe not. I think 'til then I'll give you something nice to look at and smile :) Maybe I'm not out of words, I just can't find the right ones. Hopefully I will.

Kattaca is always the most creative and wonderful artist that they are!

Xx
/Anna