Right here, Right now.

Yesterday I talked very much with one of my dearest & nearest friends of all time, Malin. I realize now that it's going to be hard without clichées.I don't have any words for this woman, cause she isn't a girl anymore, neither am I, I'm speechless. We talked about those past years, and it feels like light years ago... It's not the present, it's beyond past. We talked about stuff that matters and those that don't. I got to thinking then, what's real friendship, is it when you can call up someone, can smile at the past and yet still talk about it, is it when you've been through a up-side-down hellride and the person is still standing beside you? When you've had wonderful times. Cause if that's real friendship, then what we have is friendship, real true, unique friendship.

This is taken some years back, and yes we've laughed and cried.

With love
/Anna

And so she went further down the rabbit hole...

And down the rabbit hole I went, just further down... I do wonder if I'm gonna come to wonderland or maybe to Neverland, cause right about this time I need to escape myself and the thoughts in my head. It's gone tomorrow... I didn't expect this.

Down, down, down the rabbit hole...

/Anna

My baby don't mess around and, This I know for sure...

Yesterday was fab! You can never be wrong in the company of these lovely ladies, named Elva, Lisa and Nina. It was a smash and I took my first step into a world I've refused to be in until now. I've been at one club before called Teatron in 2007, but that's way back and not like Café Opera... But I do adore the ladies I were with and I couldn't have asked for anything else. Today I'm on mute... - but happy.

Xx
/Anna

There's no beginning and no ending...

Tonight it's partytime with Elva, lovely! Even though I haven't slept really well, and I slightly disturbed at the moment, I know everything will get better, I just have to get my aches out of my body and relax for some time... Better start looking for an outfit! I hate that!


And yes, the biggest thing on my mind right about now, is that I want passion in sex, like real passion nothing else... Give it to me, please! Like the one that are gone, there are no passion anymore...


Xx
/Anna

Nothing in life comes easily and, Nothing worth having is cheap...

Fashion, fashion, fashion is all about taking chances, I'm going to do something that is maybe a little bit too scary for me, but to hell with my fear, if I'm gonna go somewhere in this world, you better belive that I'll aim for the stars, nothing else. I have to do this. In fashion you're in and you're out, well sometimes that isn't true... Some things are always in, like the little black dress for instance, you can always have a well tailored suit, a perfect bag from Hermès or maybe the thing you might like on yourself. So am I going to go hunting for the stars or will the stars come to me? The stars won't come to me, I have to hunt them, and I will. Nothing in life worth having is cheap. Why do they say that the best things in life is free? Cause it's a struggle just to get there... But maybe it's the fight we must have...


Xx
/Anna

Changes?

I don't know what's have changed in me, maybe I'm just moving on, taking babysteps into a life I want to live? Or is it so that the ones that once was there are not anymore, in that way that I dom't need them - am I letting myself go for the first time? Or am I letting them go, without really caring about what happens? None the less it doesn't bother me. I've always talked about letting friendship go, maybe I've opened my eyes a little bit and seeing that I've already left, but also the fact that I'm ready, for something new and not the old, am I for sure moving on? I live and that's what I've wanted for all my life, so I've achieved the thing I craved the most, all other things seem like nothing, but life, it's not hard anymore. I love it.

Xx
/Anna

Don't stop me now, Don't need to catch my breath, I can go on and on and on...

How bad does hard selfdicipline sound in your ears, does it hurt or do you like it? I like it, when you do it to yourself and not to anyone else, except those who wants to have that selfdicipline. I just know that I have to take control, no one is going to do that for you and yes it's just the begining and are there such a thing as an ending? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I just keep my self on a restrained order in my life now, I have to have the control I'm seeking. Maybe that makes me a perfectionist, but that starts showing in more parts than just the things I style. I think I'm evolving and I don't feel bad. I'm not going to stop 'til I've gotten enough, and not even then... I need perfection in my wonderful chaos around me...


Xx
/Anna

Teach me passion for I fear it's gone, Show me love, hold the lorn, And you... I wish I didn`t feel for you anymore...

I got to think yesterday when me and my friend Daniel talked, about what life takes us through, what happens and what makes us change. It's very interesting how I suddenly wakes up and for the first time since I was born don't have trouble smiling or making anything than just look at small troubles that've always bothered me before, and now they don't seem to. I stand in a place where everything is new, nothing is as it was. Life is about changing and making yourself move forward to become complete, none can ever be complete but you can strive for perfection in your mind. And to be honest this is scary cause even if you pick up things very fast, you really don't have all the control yet, I'm working on it - but somewhere in my mind I wish I still was that bitter, angry and sad woman I used to be, even though I know I do not want that life ever again. That's the familliar part of me, but this is something to look forward to, I know that, cause I'm alive - and what had happen if I hadn't had the chance to experience this?

/Anna

You know I'll take you there!

This was the highlight of the show, it's amazing fantastic brilliant... I'm numb, no-fucking-one does it like Madonna, I've seen some stuff from Britney and I've seen Lady GaGa live (she can her thing to), but none is close to this... There is only one and can only be one. She is the Queen and maybe some of you thinks she's overrated, I can just disagree with you.

... life is a mystery,
everyone must stand alone,
and it feels like home...

All my love
/Anna

It can't rain all the time, The sky won't fall forever...

It just rains and rains... It's boring the hell out of me, but happily I'm gonna meet up with a friend this loomed tuesday so perhaps it gets better. From my point of view anyhow. But rain can sometimes be really good can't it?


Oh, I'm looking for the right outfits to combine my autumn/winter wardrobe, and I haven't really got it from my sight here, it's always safe to go with black, but perhaps some velvet dress in dark purple and no, I'm not hopping on the thigh-high boots trend, I love it, but I do not have the legs, but knee-high is always a trademark for me, so my favorite boots is coming to use this autumn as well, that's really good! But my bets are on velvet, lace and leather in colors in a little bit darker edge of the scale, nothing really vibrant, I get the feeling of some sort of decadance looking at the clothes that arrives...




And yeah, I'm really gonna get my body fit, I'm inspired by Madonna!

Xx
/Anna

Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone, I hear you call my name and it feels like Home...

I'm home, excited and in need of more. I am left numb for what I've had before me... Of course it wasn't pure singing all the time, but hell did she put on a show, so all I have to say is that I never will forget this incredible woman, she's one of a kind and just the QUEEN of POP! She had my euphorical and the energy she sends out trancendens into something I can not explain. I don't have anymore words... I'm left without them all I can say is that it feels like home and that life is a mystery...

Madonna is the Queen.

The best songs for me was:
Frozen
Like a Prayer

Xx
/Anna

I hear you call my name, And it feels like home!

Today I'm going down to Gothenburg again, fun fun fun! I am in fact going to see Madonna, and that is probably one of the biggest things that ever happend to me, in my musical life. She's coming and I'm hoping for sun! And from what I've heard, she is going to play my favorite song!

Soo see you all on monday and I hope you have a wonderful weekend I will.

Xx
/Anna

The chair that's on my mind.

Even though I'm not moving yet, I am currently looking for things that would fit me, of course the first thing in my mind is the egg chair, by Eero Aarino and I know that I really want it cause I've wanted it since I saw it the first time, I think I was 9 years back then... So there's never been any doubt from my point of view of having it. And I want one from the 60ties, I'm crazy I know... But it feels more, authentic then. And I have hard time deciding in what suits me. I'm to ambivalent in my taste. We'll see what happens...


Xx
/Anna

Travelling down their own road watching the signs as they go, I think I'll follow my heart, It's a very good place to start...

I'm currently hating my aches in my body and are so freaking happy about seeing Madonna on saturday that I don't know what I'm gonna do... And yes, I'm meeting Anna in about just two weeks, how lovely won't that be? She is a heroine for me. Always makes me smile and make me comfortable. So seeing her again may be the best thing this summer, sorry to everybody else, but when you haven't seen a person for a very long time you get very excited about meeting them, in my case, overwelmed. But this weekend it's Gothenburg (again) and Madonna that's in my head, if I get to hear my favorite song, I think I will melt and never exsist again, but hey I can at least say that I saw her.


And yeah, I can't find a single thing in the stores right know... This is not my favorite seasone, but black always work, so why not? And yeah, you may hate me now, but I'd love to have a fur...


Xx
/Anna

Love and confusion!

Today I've just relaxed, spent time with a friend and then with my mother, we walked quite a bit. Stockholm is a really nice when it is summer, I'm in love all over again. And that's how it's always is. In all other cases with me, I'm a litte bit confused... Why? Anyway, now I'm going to chitchat over the phone with one of the best girls in the world, my Anna!

Xx
/Anna

On the cutting edge!

Today I'm going to cut my hair, oh dear! I'm definitively not cutting everything off, I'm just saying, but I need a change, not a big one, but a change. I don't know really... What should I do? I want to be able to do different things, and not just have the same thing all the time. Hm, I think I shall consider everything now... Let's see. Maybe I'll upload some shit when it's done.

I love Reese in this style, maybe something like this?

Xx
/Anna

A windy day last week!

Here's a photo from the westcoast last week when we'd arrived and standing and looking out on the ocean! It's was a bit windy, but I love it there, I did even take a bath, and I do not take baths on the westcoast, I'm too afraid of the jellyfishes! Brr...


Xx
/Anna

Hold me and love me!

Yesterday was so fun, Lady Gaga really knows how to put on a show, and 20 000 people was there... And the outfits, they are marvelous and that she acctually can sing plays a big part in this. I just can't get enough of her, she is fun to watch and she is a big teaser for everyone!


All I can say is that I had lots of fun, and now it's only a matter of days and then I'm going to see Madonna, how freaking fantastic won't that be? I'll bet that it will be a smash!


Xx
/Anna

Are you in the game? Dans le lovegame!

In about a few hours I will be get going into town, to an amusement park, where I am going to see Lady GaGa. I'll bet you all that it will be fun, and I'm really looking forward to see what she's going to wear, haha! I love almost all her things she wears, she's crazy! I have tons of pictures to upload from my camera so it will be in nice shape.


Xx
/Anna

One love, One life.

Now I'm back again from the westcoast, it was lovely there although it was almost storm some days. So I was totally of base, none the less, it was very fun too see U2, and even if I'm not in the happiest mood right now, it will fall into pieces, I know so. Why, just because it's how I work. But was it all worth it, of course it was! Me likey!


One was for the absolute highlight of the show!

Xx
/Anna