Thoughts about life as I know it today...

Life seem a little bit to fond of playing with me, or at least my mind likes it. I don't, just to be clear. All things seem to happen at the same time, but hey I love it when it does, but you can never be careless, ever. Slightest slip and you'll be dragging your sorry little ass back! So how do you learn to live with everything at the same time? Not relying on someone to always be there except you? Where do you find yourself in all the chaotic and calm thunderstrom in your cup?

I have to tell you, working for my father is always interesting, I literally grew up with antique stuff, that led me to start thinking about interior designs and that maybe baroque, rococo, art nouveau (jugend for swedish people), or maybe art deco should suit my home? Wanting my first old vintage corset (from the c. 1800) when I was 11 and the dresses, the shoes, the just pure art in what became what I'll be working with. As always having the fortune of looking at things that are extraodrinary, it's just a swell! I still haven't got my real 1800 vintage rare corset, but the dream is alive, yet! I know I love antique furniture, architechture, clothing - there's a history in every antique object that I see...

Love

/Anna

Midnight velvet...

I want a really nice velvet dress, in a very dark colour, I found one from Mr McQueen (but he never fails to disappoint me, haha) and one from Celine. The one from McQueen is a draped dress with midnightblue velvet and a open back, I adore! Give me now! The Celine dress is very chic and has a elegance to it.

I'd love to put burgundy/silver accessories and letting this one speak for itself, cause it does!

I would probably wear this dress with some touches of colour but letting the dress be here to.

Photos from Net A Porter

Love
/Anna

Even though I tried again, I have served my time...

I've tried skype for the first time for a few seconds today, and dear my, WHY haven't I've used this wonderful thing before? I think a lot of you already use it, so it dosen't need an introdution - anyhow it's really good and so easy!


Oh, I need new clothes, and shoes, no not shoes, but a purple or burgundy velvet dress would be perfect. I'm going to wear color but dark ones as I've said before. And lace... Some gothromantic things maybe? We'll see...And guess what I'm gonna sit by my baby again and make my own things... Oh I've already got a perfect suit for this fall to come.


Xx
/Anna

It can't rain all the time, The sky won't fall forever...

It just rains and rains... It's boring the hell out of me, but happily I'm gonna meet up with a friend this loomed tuesday so perhaps it gets better. From my point of view anyhow. But rain can sometimes be really good can't it?


Oh, I'm looking for the right outfits to combine my autumn/winter wardrobe, and I haven't really got it from my sight here, it's always safe to go with black, but perhaps some velvet dress in dark purple and no, I'm not hopping on the thigh-high boots trend, I love it, but I do not have the legs, but knee-high is always a trademark for me, so my favorite boots is coming to use this autumn as well, that's really good! But my bets are on velvet, lace and leather in colors in a little bit darker edge of the scale, nothing really vibrant, I get the feeling of some sort of decadance looking at the clothes that arrives...




And yeah, I'm really gonna get my body fit, I'm inspired by Madonna!

Xx
/Anna

Are you in the game? Dans le lovegame!

In about a few hours I will be get going into town, to an amusement park, where I am going to see Lady GaGa. I'll bet you all that it will be fun, and I'm really looking forward to see what she's going to wear, haha! I love almost all her things she wears, she's crazy! I have tons of pictures to upload from my camera so it will be in nice shape.


Xx
/Anna

Give this to me, now!

Tonight it's party again, which means that I have clothes anxiety again! I promised myself that I was going to have anxiety over things that I can take control over tonight. I don't know how long that has taken for me to have an insight in. I really don't. Nevermind, tonight as I said, it's party again, and I my friends don't have anything to wear! As always. It dosen't matter, how much things I have I never have the right stuff.

This is just so crazy that I can't help myself than to love it.

Asymetric, one sleeve, purple, bright and ruffles yet sophisticated!

This is so easy to wear, and I don't think it can go wrong.

I think I would like something like these ensambles, maybe I have something that I can combine... I have to dig deep!

Xx
/Anna

Dans l'air du temps...

Today I'm going to a student reception, I think it will be kind of fun, relaxing with people you know or have known a long time ago. Sometimes even that is fun. As it comes for me, I tend to keep my ghosts in my wardrobe, I like them there. Don't know why, haha, of course I know why I keep them there. You never want another person to come digging in your garbage do you? As we all can know that we all have something that we don't want people to know about. I have some things, but my closet is never open for anyone to just come and dig in. But one thing is sure when it's this time of year, the lilacs are in blossom and that is wonderful.


Another part of me, as of me going to this reception, is that I don't know what to wear. And you know I don't find anything in the stores. I just don't. It would be nice with a sort of cute dress and a cardigan? Maybe, I don't know. All I know is that, the more clothes you have, the more difficult your decicion is going to be. But that is just my experience, but I won't be selling of a thing unless the hell freezes over.

I would love to wear a maxidress today, but as always they don't fit my breast...

This silk dress is nice, but I don't know...

Xx
/Anna

It's just a question of honour.

I'm in no shape what so ever to talk about what I feel right now, the pain won't go away and it stings and scratches, cause I really don't have a clue on what to do about it. Give me back my life, please! Because you have none whatsoever when you're dealing with pain. I'm coping with it and I'm learning, just so you know - I will not surrender to this. Because there's nothing to surrender to, I'm just living with it.


I need new dresses, I realised that tonight when I took a look in my wardrobe and how many outfits I could match up in my head I hadn't enough, I will work that out. I need new stuff. That's it... Ordinary stuff, hm, we'll see how that will work.







xo xo
Ciao!

You don't have to wear that dress, tonight.

It's raining outside and I want to go out, but not when it's raining. Like taking a walk around and just move, 'til my body says god night and god bye. I still have these aches that slowly tearing me apart. If I could rate my pain now it would be 9,5 from a scale from 0 - 10. It's not the worst, but nothing has been even a little bit better. And I hate it. But never mind. I finding it kind of hard to concentrate at this things that I want to have focus on, yeah anyone who's had a pain like ripping your body inside out, can relate to me. But I want to make new dresses and have new clothes... I have to make new things. Maybe... Simplicity is the word!






xo xo
Ciao!

Stop for a while and stare!

I just have to post some other pictures from Kattaca, that I fell in love with. It's just drop dead gorgeous, nothing else. I'm in love how they work, the digital work, how they do the retuch and uses the clothes, I think I might die if I look at anymore things from them. They're in a league of they're own. I've never seen two people do anything like this. Oh, sure I love others as well. But when I compare what other people do to this, they don't do a shit, clothes wise. That's the thing. I truly admire them and their outstanding work of art. Because this is art, nothing else.






xo xo
Ciao!

Water is my eye, Most faithful mirror, Feathers on my breath, Teardrop on the fire of a confession...

Something just struck me, when it does it hits like lightening on a somewhat easy day, so somehow it harder to melt it down. I know that I have my ups and down, and from this morning I've been slowly moving myself towards the downwards spiral thing, not that I can think of any reason why I should want to do such a thing, not to mention that I don't really do it. It just happens, it's like pulling the plug from a watertub and draining it, you know how long it takes and that the water is sometimes everywhere - this takes longer but I know it will pass. That is the key, if you know what I mean?


I'm going out tonight, and I don't have clue what to wear, I would sure like to really know right now. Give me some sort of sign! I think I would like something like this...


xo xo
Ciao!

She's been everybody else's girl, Maybe one day she'll be her own, Everybody else's girl, Maybe one day she'll be her own...

In times of need, we reach out and grab the first thing that comes our way. Not always good things, but things in a point of view that help us get by when we're in need of that in particular. I need someone that is willing to let me fall and is not going to be afraid of it. I don't know why I'm even thinking about stuff like this, but somehow I do it right now, I think I need to ventilate my thoughts somewhere were I just can write about it, but not talk about. I do not want to talk about this. What I need is to go shopping, or make myself a new dress. Lovely!


I'm listening to soothing music in my ears, just instrumental, nothing else, very melodic and yes a little bit, hm, what should you say, low-key? But I love it. I found this picture and fell in love it. Setting fire to one of the worlds greatest instruments.


xo xo
Ciao!

While your lips are still red...

I don't get the weather, suddenly it's grey outside again, yeah it's spring. I don't like it. Really, I don't. I love on the other hand that it is warmer outside, but the light! Oh my... Anyway, I'm not going to complain, there's absolutly nothing I can do about the wheater, but I can do something about my mind and how I feel about this. I will get there, 'cause I've got to. I'm feeling caught in a bubble, it will vanish later this day...


Now I will search through my closet for some clothes I want to have and what I need.
We'll see how that turns out...

xo xo
Ciao!

Won't you please, please tell me what we've learned, I know it sounds absurd, but please tell me who I am, Who I am?

I've slept for about twelve hours tonight, well worth it, if I say so. I'm not so tired right now, at least that I know about. Listening to Supertramp, taking things as it is and longing for a lot of my friends. Summer is on the way and everything is fine. I can't belive I'm accutally saying this, but everything that's used to bother me, is gone. I can't put it in words, they are unnecessary - I don't have the feeling of needing it.


I'm thinking of doing some new dresses and find some clothes combinations that I must use and wear. We'll see what happens.

I need a maxi dress, this is from Guccis Resort Colletion, I loove it! But I'm making my own.

This dress, is something I already have, but now I'm going to wear it in other ways...

xo xo
Ciao!

Stand in the dark, Oh, oh and I'll light a candle, And then we'll dance it in the moonlight, Until the sunrise

If you, in the right state of mind would stop bothering about your own pityful life you're living, you'll understand that there is so much more out there, to reach out, grab and feel that your life moves on, no matter what you choose to do. I do not belive in things such as destiny, I really can't, but in another way I can. It's somewhat comfortable that something has been chosen for just you, but what if the path the faith has chosen for you, isn't something you accutally would like... I don't like the thought here, I feel it cruel and a very unhappy thought. The only certain things we know is that we are going to die, from the day we are born. That's the only certain thing in life. You never know what else the life brings for you, maybe it will be something you'd never imagined it to be, maybe something you accutally was expecting. You never know what you're going to get out of life, I just know that I will make my life what I want it to be and I won't settle for anything less than what is the best for me. I know also that life is fragile, very very fragile.


I am going into town to meet a lovely friend today and look at things, discuss all our issues, you know, girltalk. And I am also cleaning out my closet, haha, first one in some years I think. Really clean out everything I don't want there. I'm scared, I won't throw anything, but I will however storage it. I know we have to go to Topshop, lovely!


xo xo
Ciao!

It's a kind of magic!

When it comes to love I've always been divided into two halfs, one that always want to be myself and never compromise about anything like my selfintegrity and another side that always want to make me wanting to become something more, my relationships with people always seems to end when it has been jaded with too much. I don't like when everything comes easy, I know people have told me that love is supposed to be one of the easiest feelings in the world, nothing complex nor hard to go through. I found it hard to belive, but when you maybe meet the man you have in your dreams everything changes and you found yourself just being able to cope with the situation. You see how mashed up I am about love, I don't like it easy nor when it's complex, how do you combine those two things to one?


I'm currently looking for outfits that are chic and faboulous, as I wrote about yesterday... I think I've found one outfit, but we'll see... And yeah I got the clutch and the shoes I bought home during sunday - today. I looove FedEx!

I need a new black dress that always work, this is from Rouland Mouret.

xo xo
Ciao!

It doesn't hurt me, You wanna feel how it feels, You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me, You wanna hear about the deal I'm making...

I am not in the mood right now, it's spring and I don't like it. Huh, has she gone mad? Don't take it wrong, I like it - in one way, not in another, I can't really describe it. I'm bored of almost everything in my life, every person, everything that happens, nothing new, just same old, same old. I need new things that my heart can carry in another way. I need someone to challenge me in a someway that I've never been challenged before, I sick and tired of this. Just let me be, it will pass.


Oh, I bought a pair of shoes yesterday and a clutch bag, they're something I've wanted to have for some time now, cute shoes to wear now in the spring and in the early autumn, I like it! I should have bought the shoes earlier but I haven't and now I'm happy for that, sometimes waiting gives a reward.




I want some special clothes for this weekend to come, something easy, looking sharpedged and faboulous! We'll see what I come up with, I know one outfit!

This dress is something I would like to have in my closet!

xo xo
Ciao!

Time it took the most of me, And left me with no key, To unlock the chest of remedy.

I never in my whole world would imagine why this sudden death has strucken upon me. It's disturbing, but I'm the girl who is usually found comforting in the disturbing things that happen around me, not bothered by it at all, that's me. One thing I've come to a conclusion about is that I would never settle for anything less than what's best for me, you come to terms with that realisation when you have nothing left to gain or win, you're just on your own. That's me now, on my own. Having friends beside me, but not in the way I used to. I adore the friends that have stayed with me for a very long time now, some of them in particular, I couldn't have lived my life today if it wasn't for you. You have my deepest gratitude. I love you.


Happier things, I've found these amazing cute dresses, that I am going to wear this summer, hehe! Lovely, isn't it? And yeah I found the shoes I wanted to buy, they look slighytly mad, but hey I love them!


xo xo
Ciao!

I'll follow the night, Can't stand the light, When will I begin, To live again?

Everytime I feel down, I have specific music I listen to, something that calms me, something that makes me safe, something that just is there and do nothing, don't confuses my brain or makes me think harder about all the things I know I have to deal with. I have a guess about what's bugging me, and it's not only one thing, it's all the stress, I'm not ready to lift the worlds weight on my shoulders neither was I prepered for the downfalls during to slowly taking away a medicin that has affected me in very specific ways, like wrapping my feelings around cotton, making me feel better - and they've done that for sure. We also have to take in observation that it is spring and that equals me feeling worse for a while - this is completley normal - so when I've dealt with this I will feel better.


I'm still looking for perfect spring/summer dresses, you know the ones you just can throw on and you know you will look good, I'm looking for flowers, colours, asymmetrical patterns, something that's edgy, something that's not so just me all over the place. Of course it's gonna be me, but not the usual me, something new. I'm totally schizo when it comes to clothes and shoes, you should see my wardrobe. It's a mess, I'll take some photos and show it for you, it really is a mess! But I love it!

This could be me, but it's from Confessions of A Shopaholic!

xo xo
Ciao!

Today is the last day, that I'm using words, They've gone out, Lost their meaning, Don't function anymore...

I don't really know what to write about today, my mind is spinning right now, I had so many thoughts that I was going to write about - but they've all gone missing. I cannot concentrate at this moment, tomorrow will be different, that's at least what I'm hoping for. Not to be so mashed up in my head and all over the place at the same time. I do want things to calm down a little bit, but I can't get a focus on it. I really can't and it annoys me so much. You don't even want to now what goes through my mind. It's like Bedtime Stories (the Madonna song) - so totally unexpected and so distressful. But I will come to my senses. I have people to talk to.


I'm looking for things that looks in a specific way, I can't reveal anything right now, but I know that I will find the things that are the ones in particular that I'm looking for. I always do that, with my own kind of twist. It's pretty amazing how you can take an outfit and make it into something it isn't, by just looking at it at first, that's the fun with fashion. You can style up anything!

I've said it before, but you can say it again, this is as close to perfection you ever may come in this genre!

xo xo
Ciao!