Give me, and I will die a little bit happier!

I'm in need of new shoes, since I saw some of the designs my favorite site has put up! I would die to wear these shoes during this autumn, and winter of course! So nice things, yummy! So clean, and sophisticated!

These shoes are just perfect, can you ask for anything more?
Love, love, love!

And this bag too... I loove! J'adore!

Xx
/Anna

The show must go on, because it has to.

The not so unfamiliar feeling is over me again, I can't seem to get it away. It's gonna be like this for a week perhaps, but do I hate it or not? I find myself already accepting this, and maybe that's why I don't dig my whole in the ground. Sometimes life isn't easy, the funny thing is that I don't have anything to feel bad about, I don't have anything to blame myself for, yet I do. I'm not comfortable writing these words, so I'll stop. All you need to know is that I'll be fine. But it's autumn, that explains some things.

All I keep telling myself is that the show must go on, and it will.

/Anna

Odi et amo.

I'm so out of it, I don't want anything or anyone near me. Just close my eyes and not be in here, it's down, down, down, and yet I stay with my head over the water, stoping myself from drowning in emotions, but you know what? I've learned that if I accept the emotions, let them be, they'll go away. So that's what I'm gonna do. But right now, I'm not even gonna say it. It's autumn, the weather is turning me upside down, and yes, this is my life.


/Anna

No line at all.

Today is one of the worst days ever, as I've said earlier this week, my body aches so much I'd like to chop of everything in me. I hate this feeling, and it's just getting worse, it screams like someone has beaten it up really bad, but it's my body itself that's beaten itself. I hate it, and yes today is a day when I really like to smash it into piecies. You can beat the hell out of me, I wouldn't feel that.

Anyhow, yesterday I went out to get some clothes from a designer, which we'll be shooting this coming october, lovely stuff I have to tell you that! I won't give you any details yet, but all I can say is that it's all about graphical, colorful and crazy things.


Xx
/Anna

Sometimes nostalgia is really good...

Is being nostalgic good, or is it bad? I think sometimes it cross roads with eachother, one time it's good, the next, not so very good. But today I say some of my childhood cartoons, Starwberry Shortcake, she's quite changed since I was a kid, but she's so cute that I melt. Oh, my! Well anyway I really likes fairytales, always have - always will. That's funny that these things is stuck in your mind, ever since you were a child.


Love and strawberries
/Anna

I said: OFF WITH HER HEAD!

I want all of you to look at the whole Alice In Wonderland series by Annie Leibovitz, lovingly! From beginning to end! I just can't seem to get enough! And yes, take a look, some amazing designers are in there!


Xx
/Anna

Changes, do you need them? I do.

Today I called a dietist, although I only got the message that I have to call on monday, she's not back yet. I really have to change everything in my life, I'm in need of a change. I need to be healthier and stop having the urge to saw myself apart, cause the pain my friends is not in some particullary friendly type of friend. It is now killing my body, slowly and very exhausting, cause when I have aches like this, it's hard to be nice, but I'm used to it, so it just to bite hard and keep your mouth shut, cause nobody likes when people complain.


Today I'm meeting my lovely friend Karin and we're going to eat some food and discuss everything, thank you that she is one hell of a girl that always makes me smile. So I'm cheering for that. Loovely! Can't wait.

Xx
/Anna

You get back up and do it again!

I know everything will work out, I have a huge amount off support from my parents and they'll back me up when I need it and when I don't... I don't think I can thank them enough, I love them even though we have some issues over things, sometimes, but that's how it should be. Anyway, I'm slightly getting there, not afraid of the fact that sometimes things falls down, well then you get back up and do it again. How else would you do? You're a humanbeing, and you might fall and when you fall you get back up again. That's life - and one thing is for sure, I wouldn't want to miss a second of it.

Xx
/Anna

Who is gonna run this town tonight?

I saw an absolute amazing video from Jay-Z, Rihanna and Kanye (yeah, you read it right), the new single is called Run This Town and I loove the clothes, the setdesign, how they've thought about doing something new yet something that is always a topic. Or at least from my point of view. I fell in love, both in the song (oh, yes!) and the video and the clothes, sometimes I wish I had so much money it would be ridicolous, but I don't... Money is good, money is still power, money can buy things, but it doesn't come cheap for most of us. But having money eases out a lot of things.

It's illegally fantastic!

Xx
/Anna

Fashion is everywhere.

Often when I say I'm done, I usually are. Sometimes not, but when things start to bore me out, I'm gone. Maybe that's why I'm so interested in fashion, never the same, always new, all around the year. Of course I don't like everything with fashion, but it's a passion I've taken with me since I was a child and saw all the brilliant colors, and now it's evolved into things I can't really belive, but sometimes you have that gut feeling, and mine's been with me since I was a child. This isn't something I've learned by reading in books, somethings yes, but not the creativity around the creations I've done. I love it, so even if I may say that I'm done here, I can never be, cause there's no limit to imagination or living in my wonderland, that now is filled up with extravagant and loving things.


Lots of Love
/Anna

Heads will roll!

Busy, busy, busy, lots of things is on the move, I'm taking baby steps into a world that I know I belong in, no one else. I have known that since I became aware of what clothes and colors are, known that I will work with it. Some times I wanted to be a designer, now it's a stylist I want to be, dress people up or down. Be on the cutting edge fashionshows and do it my way, not anyone elses. So let's see what the future has installed for me, I'm just hoping something good.

New photos from Kattaca and Paco Peregrín loove them!

Xx
/Anna

There's a ray of light upon your face now.

Today I'm just going to relax, maybe eat some oreos and drink some lemonade, we'll see. Things happen here, and I really want to keep myself on the ground. And yeah, I'm slowly getting started.
So see you when everything is back to normal, it won't be normal until winter, anyhow, have a little patience.

And yeah I'm playing Mahjong, it's quite tricky I'll tell you! But it's calming me down.

Xx
/Anna

Ramalama Bang Bang, Flash, Bang Big Bang!

I'm in love with Róisín Murphy and this song, she does is perfect.
Just listen! And this is live!



Visit her!

Love
/Anna

When your body sais no, what do you say?

I've slowly begun to understand that I really need to work on my body, not only do I feel better in both body and soul, it has a huge impact on my muscles and all the nerves that twitch around my body. Do I like it? No, I really don't. My pain is constant, not stoping for a second and bringing me down to my knees in agony, cause I have myself to blaim. I put on some extra pounds and I am the one that has to loose them. Not my mother, anyone around me. So now I've slowly started, I'm going back not only because I feel better - my f'ing body doesn't give me aches in this amount then.



I now have a pilatesball and a balancingboard, so here we go!

Xx
/Anna

Oh, dear my! The cravings just went through the roof!

I just fell for the most beautiful shoes I've seen in quite some time... And as everyone know (including me) is that when I get enough money to buy the I will. Not exactly those but I'm going to have some sort of likness in mine... Natacha proves all over again why she is my shoe godess!


Model is Zoe from Malificent Martini
And the SHOOOES, THE SHOOOES! I DIIIE!

Xx
/Anna

Does your body destroy you?

I do love to dance, maybe I should begin dancing? Or something? I know I have to train myself up... My f'ing body hurts to damn much, it's just aching, nothing else. Do I hate it? Yes. Does it slowly kill me? Yes. My body screams after something, not food but loosing some weight... So my penalty crime is that I have destroyed my body.


But right now I feel happy in my mind - not the body.

/Anna

The storm in the teacup has nearly begun...

I'm a rollercoaster, in one second I'm up next moment I'm down, where the hell is this coming from? I can't really handle it, it just brings confusion and troubles. I'm numb in some ways, and again I'm going through this alone - this is school for me. I'm reading what my mind tells me and take notes. I think nobody really understands the hell you are in when you have this, 'til you're standing there with it. It's like standing still, wanting to leave and at the same time not. I'm a storm in a teacup, and guess what, I know it will get a little bit worse now that it's the beginning of the autumn, like always, but it gets clearer. So please excuse me while I'm in this mood. Cause I can't control it, but none the less, it's easier this time, than last. So keep your fingers crossed, cause that's what I'm doing.


/Anna

Is it true, Same shit, Different name?

I'm in shock, totally in shock. I found a blog today where you could see shoes from a company... The shoes are a replica of my favorite queen of making shoes, Natacha Marro. The one I'd never buy a replica from, not even if it would look good. Why? Cause I truly admire her work. There was tons of her shoes, all I could think was Oh no, not again. Are we so completley non creative that we settle for other peoples designs? And yes of course was Louboution there to, what else?

The original from Natacha, I love them, and I have a pair in white and one in burgundy! <3

The burlesque from Pleaser, aren't they just the same? No, no leather.

The original and best, can you beat him?

The Teeze burlesque Louboutin shoes from Pleaser...

/Anna

What's it all worth?

I have nothing to say or wanting to say to anyone right now. Except that I'm meeting my wonderful Anna this friday, how lovely isn't that? But some things are bothering me, don't really know, maybe it's because it's soon autumn and I don't like that. Not at all.


/Anna

Even though I tried again, I have served my time...

I've tried skype for the first time for a few seconds today, and dear my, WHY haven't I've used this wonderful thing before? I think a lot of you already use it, so it dosen't need an introdution - anyhow it's really good and so easy!


Oh, I need new clothes, and shoes, no not shoes, but a purple or burgundy velvet dress would be perfect. I'm going to wear color but dark ones as I've said before. And lace... Some gothromantic things maybe? We'll see...And guess what I'm gonna sit by my baby again and make my own things... Oh I've already got a perfect suit for this fall to come.


Xx
/Anna