Snakes leads today to a tower!

I started out looking for one, ended up with another! But much more pleasant than I thought! I found this wonderful (though in my eyes a little scaring) advert photo for Alexander McQueen's Plato Atlantis - a really wonderful collection from the brittish sometimes controversial artsy designer, whom I adore. That led me to the SHOWstudio, and I fell in love, as soon as I'd clicked on the link... There I found so many different projects going on, just go there and take a look! So one then the other, I found myself chasing a classical tune, found it, thankfully - Requiem for a Tower!

Did you like the ad?

I sure did (and the shoes) and I think Nick Knight did one hell of a job, also Raquel Zimmermann that's the so stunning and extraordinary model beneath all those colourful snakes... Am I scared? Yes. Would I do it? No, unless I was paid very well!

Colourful snake kisses

/Anna

What do I want?

There are certain things I want to do through out my life, one of those is writing some sort of book, maybe just for me, but I will write. That I am sure off. Only because I'm too stubborn to not do it. Writing has always been a way to take anxiety away, or thoughts that I've had. I still use my writing as my own way of realising and accepting.

But some of the other things I would like to have done when I'm finished is;

Travelled and explored all the corners of the world.

Start dancing again.

Live my life at the fullest every day.

Love.

Find myself, and someone that are able to live with me.

Take my driver's licence!

That would sum it all up, but of course there are the tiny little things that always will be there.

What do you want, for yourselvs? Not to make any other person happy - just you.

Love

/Anna

Who am I, a human?

I don't know what I am at this very moment, I'm left without words. All the feelings a human can have, is inside me. Both all the happy, loving, caring , the angry, irritated, useless feelings and more are in me. All I wonder is; why the hell do I still care? Cause no matter what, I can't seem to be finding a good reason of doing it. I don't have any reason at all to care about this. So why do I? Because I'm human, that's it - if I'm logical... Perhaps? Who bloody hell cares? Think of whatever you want to think. I'm off.

/Anna

Now we are free...

From one of the most impressive movies I've ever seen, I give you the song... I'm always out of breath and words when I see this... Speechless and crying...

I have my freedom, do you have yours?

It doesn't matter if I'm in a cage or out running, I am free.

Peaceful kisses

/Anna

Boheme chic romantic elegance...

After paying a visit to my all time favourite site that has some sort of direction in the fahion world, except Style, Fashionista is the place to be, today they'd brought up new young stars in photograhpy. As always I fell for at least one of them! The woman is named Petra Van Raaij, and she truly has talent. It's something very boheme chic romantic elegance over it!

All the pictures are in courtesy of Petra Van Raaij.

With wishes for spring, summer and with love

/Anna

Accepting responsibility...

This day was the first day, that I dreamt of spring since the beginning of the winter. Usually I dislike all the seasons, but this last autumn and winter has changed me - whether I wanted it or not, but it happend in the evolution of acceptance and living because I wanted to. The strive to happiness, has seemed painful and never ending! But here I stand one year after what might have been one of the most important sequences of my life so far - alive.

Learning to live, and still learning is something I practice everyday. Do you know people who makes excuses, like; I'm like "this" cause this happened to me - and the excuses are going on and on... I do not ever want to be spoken to saying; that I didn't do my time. That's not me. Neither should it be anyone elses. I've started take responsibility, cause the only one controlling my life is me, with my values - living life - with every inch of still being me...

Love

/Anna

Dusty dreams in my mind this very instant...

Some pictures that now is totally taking up my mind, diffrent times, but oh, I love the fairytale and dusty, shimmering feeling around these ones... It makes me smile. I true have a really fascination of storys they all tell me...

Dreamy dusty kisses

/Anna

Guilty or not, what's my value?

Calmed panic? Does that really exist? I do not know, therefore the question. A part is ripping everything inside out, the other is putting it back where it belongs... What would you do? I just go with the flow, at least trying to do that. But reminding myself that I am human, and working for a better state regarding my values, thoughts and my responsibility that I have as a human. I can't say, that wasn't my fault all the time, hiding from what I don't want to touch or feel. Neither can't I deny that one thing I have is not my fault at all, but can I blame the genetics all the time, and where do I land? Am I guilty, should I hide or run, is it my fault? Or does my or your truth sometimes slides under or above?

Divided kisses

/Anna

Dance as an artform...

I do miss dancing, a little bit too much right now! The "if" is constantly repeating itself, as the question why I stopped torments my mind. There's a reason of course, but I wish that things would've turned out in some other way. I'm still thinking of picking up on dance, cause I really can't stop watching ballet, movies about dance, competitions, dance is such a pure astonishing fabulous work of artform... For me it takes my breath away. Would I have liked not to have a sickness regarding my physical health, but hey - it's life. I'll make it work, we'll see...

Now it's time for So You Think You Can Dance?

At least once in my life I do intend to see real ballet performed,

hopefully in Russia and to Tchaikovsky's masterpieces...

Love

/Anna

Apollo and Daphne!

My head is about to explode soon. Not literally though, some sort of mentally. I have so much on my mind that I don't know where to put it. I think I would feel good if I went into a very dark room, and stayed there until this is over. I'm looking for all kinds of inspiration... And I'm going back to my art books, looking through everything that I might find some interest in. Reading through the Acheamendid Empire to this present day... That's very much information... But I'm up for the challenge! I'll give you one of my favourite sculptures! By no one else than Bernini himself!

If you want to learn more, go check up Apollo and Daphne,

and see their beautiful lovestory here carved in marble...

And yes, I will soon upload lots of the new delightful couture collection from Dior!

Lovely lillies

/Anna

Cherish your life...

I'm at peace, for the moment, what else can I say? What is there to say? What more do I want to share with you? As I seem too find my own little path, entirely my own, I suddenly realise that I wheter you travel, not all of those who were is going to be with you. But those who are, cherish them. I will 'til the very end of me and you.

Love

/Anna

There's no limit in my fantasy, except me.

Having pain in your whole body - all along every day that passes by, is dreadful. If I wasn't in a happy state of mind, I'd think I'd be laying with a saw cutting everything except the head of... eh? But I don't, I'm a survivor, but I have to admit, that I sometimes do tend to wonder about that. I can't stand myself sometimes, so I wonder how my family is adjusting to the situation? You can't control the weather - neither me. Therefore dreaming is one of the best parts of the life I'm living, I can have my painless body, and my mind can spin as it wants to. There's no

limit in my fantasy, the world I do now enjoy entering. Cause there's no limits, only the ones I create.

Fantasy loveliness

/Anna

Do you value yourself as much as you shoud?

Do you have values? For yourself, and not attemting to perform exceedingly well for another person/partner? Do you have them for you and only you? Do you at the same time have goals that you want to achive in a time not to far away? I'm trying to figure out my values, as my goals in my life. That means I'm taking the actual thoughts from my head into actions, for me. I need the structure and I need my brain to start working as I want it, with methods and knowledge.

What are your values? And how do you make them into your ordinary life?

Xx

/Anna

Harlequins and phobias...

It all started tonight when I was looking for harlequins and pierrots, and it popped up! I know that I shouldn't look at pictures of deformations on humans, like yes the tree-man which has a rare mutation of HPV, but as soon as I start looking I can't stop. It start itching and I feel like somethings is eating me up from inside, I get really scared thinking that I might have a mutation process in my cells... But I don't, I know, but this still drives my mind crazy and all my phobias up to the surface... I don't dislike the people, I'm just to freaked out of how the mutation can happen... Nevermind, as I said, I'm looking for harlequin and pierrots pictures, I love them!

This is a picture I took back in 2005, I think, a very long time ago!

Right now I'm raging the internet for pictures, like a maniac...

Love

/Anna

Tv, whenever you may ask!

This one new commercial that the comedy duo, Judit and Judit has done for Comhem here in Sweden, you can say what you want about Comhem, but they do one hell of commercials now! Loveit! All over, it's just fantastic, the other one, was the Youtube hits, priceless one too!

Hope you enjoyed it!

Love and laughs

/Anna

Thoughts about life as I know it today...

Life seem a little bit to fond of playing with me, or at least my mind likes it. I don't, just to be clear. All things seem to happen at the same time, but hey I love it when it does, but you can never be careless, ever. Slightest slip and you'll be dragging your sorry little ass back! So how do you learn to live with everything at the same time? Not relying on someone to always be there except you? Where do you find yourself in all the chaotic and calm thunderstrom in your cup?

I have to tell you, working for my father is always interesting, I literally grew up with antique stuff, that led me to start thinking about interior designs and that maybe baroque, rococo, art nouveau (jugend for swedish people), or maybe art deco should suit my home? Wanting my first old vintage corset (from the c. 1800) when I was 11 and the dresses, the shoes, the just pure art in what became what I'll be working with. As always having the fortune of looking at things that are extraodrinary, it's just a swell! I still haven't got my real 1800 vintage rare corset, but the dream is alive, yet! I know I love antique furniture, architechture, clothing - there's a history in every antique object that I see...

Love

/Anna

I've seen the future, baby, It is murder...

Listening to Leonard Cohen brings back more memories than I thought it should... Most of them are good, some bad. But that's life. This little man has so much power in each and single word he sings and write, I'm just numb. I saw him for more than a year ago, and I started crying as soon as he stepped out on the stage. The little man with the strongest words shaped by songs that will live forever. He was beautiful, strong and kindhearted. I don't know if any words that I might come to write is going to be enough. I'll be waiting for that miracle forever. Music is one of the most important influences in my life.

Love

/Anna

Dance, move, figure!

I just have to show you some pictures that might shine a light on my dreadful blog this night, now it's So You Think You Can Dance, and I want shoes. So I'll watch the show, hoping that their dance brings lots of smiles on my lips!

Love

/Anna

Thoughts about being a brick in a wall..

I don't want to write about the catastrophic disaster on Haiti, not because I don't care, cause I do. I just don't have any words for what's happening. I can write about it now, I really do have thoughts about it. But let's take it like this, I will never allow anyone to take pleasure in human crises, or the violence around us - some people at Facebook created a donation group for the Haiti victims, but they changed it - into something where the money went to something else, in this case necrophilia (I do not say you can't imagine about stuff or wanting something, that's totally up to you), but to collect money from it. Is that okey? No, not for me. I don't think I know anyone who is into childpornography or domestic violence, neither sexual assulting women or men, violation is never going to be something I would accept. Sometimes I use to say that we're all just a brick in the wall (yes from Pink Floyd) cause it fits right there. I don't know - we're indivduals, but also the same, with the same rights and we have our freedom, but do we really?

/Anna

Why can't it be on the same level for once?

My phsyical health is slowly killing me, but my spirit is as high as it could be, lots of nice things happens to the people that's around me. I just can't stop smiling and all the love in the world seems too have filled my heart that it may burst any minute now, but I don't care if it burst I'll still have the love. I'm just so happy that I could start crying, realising that I do have the most amazing friends and my family around me. I just wish that my body would like to keep up with my state of mind, or likewise...

I need a man, that's one thing that's sure!

Or I need shoes, but what pair? Louboutin, Blahnik, Marro? Who?

Love

/Anna